Its my 19th birthday too today, Im revising at home.
Meh its not too bad.
All you need to do is remember this:
When opportunities arise, take them.
I have missed out on so much because I didn't take the opportunities, I was scared to take them. I have no friends and haven't spoken to another human in nearly two weeks. I don't know anyone. I don't do anything. I have wasted all my teenage years and I hate myself for it. I feel like I'll never get it back and I don't want to do anything at all now. Make sure you take every opportunity you can, and you'll live without regrets.
You have two years out so make the most of them. Work, save up money, travel, learn a language, get fit, take up photography, learn how to play the harmonica, do some volunteering. Seriously there are so many ways you can make the most of your time, and a lot of them will introduce you to like minded people. You'll need at least a part time job as almost every thing costs money in one way or another, but that in itself will introduce you to more people. A lot of people don't have a great time at school/college because it's a period of teenage angst and playing to other people's perceptions. You have a great opportunity to figure out what it is you really like to do, and what you want from university as well.
And as far as the screaming goes, go out to a big open field or the woods and do it. Just scream your ******* lungs out. It feels awesome.
so what, a birthday is just another day closer to your death
I'm 20 and I graduate in a month. My birthday was about 2 months ago.
To give the opposite perspective, I sometimes think that I should have taken a gap year or two. University seems to have whizzed by, but for a lot of it I just didn't feel the sense of purpose or place I have now. I honestly think that I probably would have enjoyed it a lot more if I had the maturity of a year abroad or working to root myself.
You should seize this opportunity to experience life independently before being thrust into the bubbly cesspool - go and do something that you can feel good about in two years, something that the people who go straight in can't claim at all.
I just want to say thanks to all those who posted I feel so much better already. I feel a bit embarrassed for posting it because I was in such a bad place last night.
But I'm definitely going to make some changes. I’ve just been of the phone to my best friend and we’re arranging a girly weekend on Sat and Sun. As for doing something with my life – I’ve decided applying for 3 month year abroad programme for October my grandparents are willing to give me a bit of money for it. I’m still applying for a job so hopefully ill get one in the few months.
I really appreciate the advice you have all given me. It’s opened my eyes to what I can do.
I feel embarrassed for even feeling sorry for myself in the first time. But I’m going to do it. I’ve already joined the gym so that’s a start I suppose. And tomorrow I’m going to sort out a self study Alevel I can do and finally get the ball rolling.
I’m just really hoping I got a job in the next few months – but I refuse to feel sorry for myself.
And to the guy who said friends mean nothing - that’s not true. I’ve just spoken to my friend on the phone and she made me feel better within seconds. Friends really now how to make you feel better, they’re there for you.