I have daddy issues and... Watch
Samaritans, maybe? I know you might think it'll be a non-issue to them, but they'll probably give you a proper listen at the least.
Then you'll have to find a counsellor from somewhere else I guess.
Looking up to your boyfriend is totally natural and quite healthy. Male leadership in relationships was the historical norm before the last 30 years and created the happiest relationships.
It's so strange that a woman being attracted to an older guy who'll look after her considers it a pathological issue. What has happened to society?
Don't listen to the feminist rubbish. Age gaps are normal and healthy.