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    I keep on continuing this annoying path of anorexia recovery... I lost a lot of friends from it, and since I've moved I feel a lot better though my old home has too many bad associations.

    I am very insecure, I find personal relationships quite a challenge, take a long time to trust people and am quite reclusive. I often feel my mood swings compete against recovery process and can pose a threat. All in all, I feel it has and does make me quite an unstable person. Moreover, it's very damaging to my close relationships . I just never seem to be able to make people happy and do all the wrong things.
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    eating disorders come and go.. :/
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I've suffered from pretty severe OCD for five years now; it crushed myself confidence and made me a pretty messed up individual.

    Only now am I kind of coming to terms with the fact that I really do need help (taken long enough)..and I'm so tired of having to pretend everything's okay- I daren't moan about it incase I annoy people.

    My parents still don't know but I hate to admit I can't help but feel ashamed and embarassed even though I know I shouldn't.

    Anyway, I'm interested in how people handle it whether it's yourself or someone you know.

    I think that there should be more of an emphasis on recognising mental illnesses because in my experience nobody really talks about them because they're kind of invisible if you get what I mean and my parents have often just labelled me as a 'hormonal' teenager :/
    I don't have a mental illness myself, but a member of my family does. People forget that when it affects somebody, it affects those around them too, and it is quite difficult.
    Obviously, it is clearly more difficult for the sufferer. But nobody has ever told me how I should be there to help.
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    (Original post by foldingstars45)
    I don't have a mental illness myself, but a member of my family does. People forget that when it affects somebody, it affects those around them too, and it is quite difficult.
    Obviously, it is clearly more difficult for the sufferer. But nobody has ever told me how I should be there to help.
    Thats a good point it affects families more than people think expecially when families etc dont understand.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Is that not schizophrenia? Also if you don't mind me asking, what do you mean by 15 weeks of episode? does it last permanently for that length of time? And what nationality are you? White british? xx

    I thought I'm schizophrenic but that's been ruled out. I'm too rational and self-aware for it. 15 weeks of episode refers to 15 weeks in which psychotic stuff has happened. I'm not properly psychotic 24/7, otherwise I'd be in a ward somewhere. I'm British Sinhalese :bhangra:
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    (Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
    I thought I'm schizophrenic but that's been ruled out. I'm too rational and self-aware for it. 15 weeks of episode refers to 15 weeks in which psychotic stuff has happened. I'm not properly psychotic 24/7, otherwise I'd be in a ward somewhere. I'm British Sinhalese :bhangra:
    Thanks for answering my questions

    How has it affected your everyday life? Do you still often socialise and do you have many friends? I'd imagine a understanding, caring friend would be priceless in a situation you're in
    How sudden was the onset of your psychosis? When was your first episode? What was it like?
    I'd like to hear more about you and your condition, just because I am very curious and the complex nature of the human mind and mental illness fascinates me. I hope you aren't offended by this, and you don't have to reply if you don't want to, of course

    In keeping with the thread title, I suffer from Anxiety, OCD and Depression. I won't lie but my mental illness has had a detrimental impact on my life, I was first affected at the age of 14 (now 20) and I was on course to playing England Youth level cricket (I played county standard and was destined for big things so everyone said!) But I had to stop playing cricket which was so hard, haven't played since. Hoping to get back into the swing of things this summer.

    With my OCD I never knew what it was, until one day I started to have thoughts about wanting to stab and kill people who I knew and loved. Obviously this was very distressing and I thought I was going mad and would one day become a criminal. Such is the nature of OCD that in fact every human often has thoughts of wanting to kill, harm or has sexual thoughts about people, it's part of being a human! but with OCD we latch onto these thoughts and give them meaning, which causes rumination and makes us feel like we're horrible people, animals in fact.
    I have had a course of CBT which I am currently attending and it's been great. Most of my intrusive thoughts have stopped as my mind is now trained to ignore them. I think it's amazing how the brain can be trained just by learning a few techniques!

    Everyone who's interested in learning about OCD please read here about 'intrusive thoughts' see here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intrusive_thoughts
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Thanks for answering my questions

    How has it affected your everyday life? Do you still often socialise and do you have many friends? I'd imagine a understanding, caring friend would be priceless in a situation you're in
    How sudden was the onset of your psychosis? When was your first episode? What was it like?
    I'd like to hear more about you and your condition, just because I am very curious and the complex nature of the human mind and mental illness fascinates me. I hope you aren't offended by this, and you don't have to reply if you don't want to, of course

    In keeping with the thread title, I suffer from Anxiety, OCD and Depression. I won't lie but my mental illness has had a detrimental impact on my life, I was first affected at the age of 14 (now 20) and I was on course to playing England Youth level cricket (I played county standard and was destined for big things so everyone said!) But I had to stop playing cricket which was so hard, haven't played since. Hoping to get back into the swing of things this summer.

    With my OCD I never knew what it was, until one day I started to have thoughts about wanting to stab and kill people who I knew and loved. Obviously this was very distressing and I thought I was going mad and would one day become a criminal. Such is the nature of OCD that in fact every human often has thoughts of wanting to kill, harm or has sexual thoughts about people, it's part of being a human! but with OCD we latch onto these thoughts and give them meaning, which causes rumination and makes us feel like we're horrible people, animals in fact.
    I have had a course of CBT which I am currently attending and it's been great. Most of my intrusive thoughts have stopped as my mind is now trained to ignore them. I think it's amazing how the brain can be trained just by learning a few techniques!

    Everyone who's interested in learning about OCD please read here about 'intrusive thoughts' see here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intrusive_thoughts
    Weird you mention that about wanting to kill and stab your family etc I have similar thoughts but not with my family, just outsiders. It's like a sense of injustice with some things that have happened which gave me some crazy thoughts. I keep thinking of doing a Raoul Moat in my head, or a Derek Bird .. basically being one of those maniacs. After I woke up today I started thinking about getting a gun and lying in a corner threatening people with it. Bizarre. I'm not sure where they stem from because I don't want to kill anyone But I've latched onto it and I keep dwelling on it and worrying over it and thinking that I could turn out to be a Raoul Moat or Derek Bird. It could well be some kind of OCD/intrusive thoughts so I'm glad you brought that up because having read it, it kind of fits.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Thanks for answering my questions

    How has it affected your everyday life? Do you still often socialise and do you have many friends? I'd imagine a understanding, caring friend would be priceless in a situation you're in
    How sudden was the onset of your psychosis? When was your first episode? What was it like?
    I'd like to hear more about you and your condition, just because I am very curious and the complex nature of the human mind and mental illness fascinates me. I hope you aren't offended by this, and you don't have to reply if you don't want to, of course
    It means I've - for the moment - lost all independence, motivation, self-confidence and ability to function as a normal person. I have to be supervised almost everytime I go outside and my parents have to phone and check on me constantly. I can't get a job or focus on my MA. I hardly socialise because I can't stand going outside but I do have lots of lovely friends.

    The first episode popped out of nowhere during my second year of uni. It was terrifying, as I had no idea what was going on and couldn't really communicate it to anyone :no:
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    (Original post by Skill)
    Weird you mention that about wanting to kill and stab your family etc I have similar thoughts but not with my family, just outsiders. It's like a sense of injustice with some things that have happened which gave me some crazy thoughts. I keep thinking of doing a Raoul Moat in my head, or a Derek Bird .. basically being one of those maniacs. After I woke up today I started thinking about getting a gun and lying in a corner threatening people with it. Bizarre. I'm not sure where they stem from because I don't want to kill anyone But I've latched onto it and I keep dwelling on it and worrying over it and thinking that I could turn out to be a Raoul Moat or Derek Bird. It could well be some kind of OCD/intrusive thoughts so I'm glad you brought that up because having read it, it kind of fits.
    Yeah your description fits with yours - as the thoughts are unwanted and are causing you distress, they qualify as intrusive thoughts.
    When I first went to see my CBT therapist, I was a wreck, I thought I was scum for having such horrible violent thoughts, but he said to me that if I am having these thoughts about stabbing my family and they are causing me to be distressed and worried, then it shows that I'd never act out on my thoughts. So basically if the thoughts cause distress then you should find peace of mind that they are only thoughts and don't neccessarily mean you will act on your thoughts.
    I hope that makes sense?! If not, please tell me! If you have any questions please PLEASE ask me! I know what it's like to feel like you're going mad! If I can help even just a tiny bit, I'll be more than happy to do so
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    That Wikipedia article's an interesting read. I have huge problems with intrusive thoughts but no one's ever suggested OCD or anything similar :nah:
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Yeah your description fits with yours - as the thoughts are unwanted and are causing you distress, they qualify as intrusive thoughts.
    When I first went to see my CBT therapist, I was a wreck, I thought I was scum for having such horrible violent thoughts, but he said to me that if I am having these thoughts about stabbing my family and they are causing me to be distressed and worried, then it shows that I'd never act out on my thoughts. So basically if the thoughts cause distress then you should find peace of mind that they are only thoughts and don't neccessarily mean you will act on your thoughts.
    I hope that makes sense?! If not, please tell me! If you have any questions please PLEASE ask me! I know what it's like to feel like you're going mad! If I can help even just a tiny bit, I'll be more than happy to do so
    Ye I kind of panic and think why the **** am I thinking this? Although I must say also I'm not sure if I feel it's bad - what I mean is I find it hard to feel emotion when I can't physically experience it. Like with the baby P case .. I don't feel sorry for the kid but that's because I don't know him or didn't see the abuse first hand etc I'd need to experience wrongness from another persons part to feel a sense of 'uh this is wrong/sick'. But I obviously know say shooting people is wrong etc it just stresses me out that I think about it, almost create a story in my head.
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    I think cas in your mind if you're a bit unstable and depressed etc I think for me anyways, the fear of going crazy is very strong because I'm such a **** up in my mind. I'm glad I saw that intrusive thoughts page though, makes sense.
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    In my opinion people who don't have what would be classed as a mental illness are delusional, and that the maladaptive behaviors of people with "mental disorders" are actually because they see what reality is. Those who don't have a mental disorder aren't living in reality and have delusional ideas of themselves and the world, that allow them to function better. Therefore i think you have to be delusional to be "normal" and function well in the world. Hope this helps.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    In my opinion people who don't have what would be classed as a mental illness are delusional, and that the maladaptive behaviors of people with "mental disorders" are actually because they see what reality is. Those who don't have a mental disorder aren't living in reality and have delusional ideas of themselves and the world, that allow them to function better. Therefore i think you have to be delusional to be "normal" and function well in the world. Hope this helps.
    And I figured R.D Laing died before I was even born..
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    (Original post by laut_biru)
    And I figured R.D Laing died before I was even born..
    Wow never heard of him before, really interesting thanks.

    And the documentary "the trap"
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    (Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
    That Wikipedia article's an interesting read. I have huge problems with intrusive thoughts but no one's ever suggested OCD or anything similar :nah:
    Yeah people assume OCD is just wanting things ultra-tidy or washing your hands several times, when really that is just a tiny part of the illness.

    The 'O' is just the obsessive part of the illness, which is when the mind obsesses and ruminates over intrusive thoughts as described in the link I gave above... the 'C' compulsive part is the repetitive checking, watching, cleaning, counting etc of objects...
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    Agoraphobia. Started last August, and my counsellor thinks it's repressed grief from my dad's death 6 years ago when I was 11. And it gave me depression for a while, and it's all so lingering and so difficult to rid myself of.

    Sometimes I wonder if it will ever go away. I can't walk from my college to town because I get worried I'll faint or be sick, and I can't go on the train or public buses for journeys that last longer than like 10 minutes, and I find it really difficult to go shopping with my friends, and impossible if my mum isn't there to pick me up just in case something happens.
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    (Original post by fire2burn)
    For some people they stop completely thanks to medication, I know a girl who attends the same place as me and for her the antipsychotics have worked and she's really doing well towards recovering and getting everything back on track. For me though despite being on the highest dose of quetiapine I still get days where I hear them, mostly at night time when I'm trying to get to sleep. There's no background noise to distract you so you end up noticing them more.

    When I'm not on medication I get other hallucinations such as seeing ghostly shadow people following me everywhere, and other things like objects changing size/shape and moving towards me. Those sorts of things though are controlled pretty well by the medication. And so far as I'm aware I'll probably have to take the medication for life, in the past when I've stopped taking it my symptoms have come back.
    How are you doing man not heard you post in a while. How are things??
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Yeah people assume OCD is just wanting things ultra-tidy or washing your hands several times, when really that is just a tiny part of the illness.

    The 'O' is just the obsessive part of the illness, which is when the mind obsesses and ruminates over intrusive thoughts as described in the link I gave above... the 'C' compulsive part is the repetitive checking, watching, cleaning, counting etc of objects...
    I don't think I have proper OCD. I think I have religious OCD, which is called religious scruples, but that's about as OCD as I get. Definitely have intrusive thoughts but not quite on an OCD level :yes:
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    (Original post by Amandeep_Psych07)
    From my experience, I've seen a lot of people be judgemental towards me and mental illness.
    I know what you mean. My mother suffers from Bipolar, a form of manic depression and there is still this stigma around her disorder I find hard to understand. Some of the most intelligent and famous people were Bipolar including Lincoln, Winston Churchill, Marilyn Monroe, Vincent Van Gogh and people still think in this way. It really surprises me!
 
 
 
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