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It's been a long time since I posted here, hope everyone is okay though :hugs:
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It's been a long time since I posted here, hope everyone is okay though :hugs:
Hello emily :hugs:

How are you?
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anyone want a depsoc meetup in Leicester? my easter house has plenty of sleepover potential.
i've taken up home brewing over the holidays too, just as something to do. making mead in my cupboard. i'll let people have some if anyone wants to come over!
(Original post by vapid slut magician)
Loads of my friends at home have been married at least a year and have young babies now. Or they're just in really long term relationships. Everyone at uni seems to have found bfs even though they're only here for a year. I've been single 3 1/2 years now and it's starting to bother me, none of the guys I like ever seem interested and no one else seems to want me. No one ever hits on me or asks me on dates or anything, it's so depressing. It's like I'm over the hill already and will never find anyone.
how old are you then?
i'm sure it's more than just "starting to" bother you... do the guys you like actually know you like them?

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I just want to walk out of my door and never come back. I can't keep fighting like this. I hate feeling like this. If I try hard enough I can even persuade myself that it's a dream. I want my life back. I don't want to have lost him - it's breaking my heart.
I'm sorry, feel free to pm if you want to talk about anything. :grouphugs:
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(Original post by vapid slut magician)
Loads of my friends at home have been married at least a year and have young babies now. Or they're just in really long term relationships. Everyone at uni seems to have found bfs even though they're only here for a year. I've been single 3 1/2 years now and it's starting to bother me, none of the guys I like ever seem interested and no one else seems to want me. No one ever hits on me or asks me on dates or anything, it's so depressing. It's like I'm over the hill already and will never find anyone.
I know how you feel...

(Though I've always been single, no months or weeks about it...years in fact.

Being straight...let's say 50% of the population is male and 50% female, you can date one in four people.

If 50% are male and 50% female...and only 1 in 10 people are gay, 10% of females in the population is 5% of the entire population.

So statistically 1 in 4 people in the population are "available" for you to date, whereas for me it's only 1 in 20 people.

And although I've never calculated this until now, I knew it was much reduced and it is for this reason that I have no hope whatsoever in finding anyone or having to wait until I'm about 35 before I do and I actually won't live until then I'll die of an unloved, aching heart and until then I will forever be looking at girls and secretly thinking "gosh you're beautiful, I wish you were mine" and at other times walking past girls trying to maintain a regular composure while slightly feeling a little shy or self-conscious because I'm walking past a gorgeous girl.
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Ugh, i feel so **** right now. I really just feel like crying for no reason but I can't, I don't know why. It would be nice to just cry for a bit, it would be like i'm actually feeling something instead of this never ending numbness. I've just had my first cigarette in ages cause I didn't know what else to do, smoking always helped me feel less stressed. I feel so alone and lost. Its like i'm stuck still in slow motion while the whole world moves around me at lightning speed. I wish I could find someone too, i've been single for 5 coming up to 6 years now. I've never had a serious relationship and everyone around me seems to find people really easily. I'm guessing its cause of my size that no one is interested in me and I have no self esteem or confidence any more. Everything seems so hopeless now. I just want to curl up and sleep for ever.
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I missed ANOTHER ****** day of school today, I'm probably going to get exelled at this rate, and the school's chasing me up about why I didn't come =///

I seriously felt ill today, but I can't keep giving that as a excuse. Plus I have homework to give in O_o
I haven't actually felt this **** in a while.....just dreading having to explain to my teachers tomorrow! They won't believe I was sick AGAIN.
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Tbh I'd rather die if I'm going to have to live a life where I'm surrounded by girls and never get to kiss one, hug or date one and then have to go through all the social difficulties that gay people go through. Why was I born?
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Hey guys, how's everyone?

It's Easter break for me now and I'm already dreading going back to uni, it's completely ruining my holiday. Week after week after week alone, I've never been the life and soul at parties but I didn't realise how lonely it's possible to get. I have one friend over msn and pretty much no one else. I also have exams which I have to get at least a 2:1 in, but my concentration is virtually zero, I've got through about 50 pages in over a week, but my bibliography is about 100 odd books, I've got no chance of even finishing this one before the holiday is done not to mention any of the others. I hate my course, I hate uni, I hate being so incredibly alone 99% of the time. I'm just trying to sort out my thoughts sorry to rant here and not help anyone.
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(Original post by Blue Rose)
Tbh I'd rather die if I'm going to have to live a life where I'm surrounded by girls and never get to kiss one, hug or date one and then have to go through all the social difficulties that gay people go through. Why was I born?
you will do. I think joining the lgbt group at your uni is a good step. I know it takes courage but when you walk into that room you're going to be faced with people who have been where you are, people who you can identify with, not people who will judge you.
if you don't do it you'll regret it, this is one of the easiest ways for you to meet other lesbians because they're all gathered together in one place for your convenience!
think of it like this: yes, it's scary and it takes a lot of guts to walk into that room but you'll most likely feel right at home very quickly. the alternative is several more years of feeling like you do now. which is easier to stomach?

does the group have a facebook group? it might be easier for you to join that and get to know one or two people before you go.
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I've felt utterly terrible for the last couple of days, for no apparent reason. Last week I was feeling reasonably good and positive, but it's just dissapeared. Yesterday at college I felt so miserable and on the verge of tears, and today when I woke up I still felt really down. Went to college anyway, but I felt so bad and knew I wouldn't be able to deal with class, so I decided to come home. Might just go back to bed now...
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I've felt utterly terrible for the last couple of days, for no apparent reason. Last week I was feeling reasonably good and positive, but it's just dissapeared. Yesterday at college I felt so miserable and on the verge of tears, and today when I woke up I still felt really down. Went to college anyway, but I felt so bad and knew I wouldn't be able to deal with class, so I decided to come home. Might just go back to bed now...
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(Original post by jonathan122)
:jumphug: huggles

How are you Elements?
Hey Jonathon, how are you?:hugs:

I'm sending a PM your way very soon :yes:
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There is nightline, if that's of any use to you guys?
Heya, how are you lovely?:hugs: Haven't spoken to you in ages!
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yeah, i remember you from here a while back. why?
I just wondered whether you remembered me or not because I get very lonely alot too and I'm at the same University as you, and staying in Halls too. I have a few friends at Uni and a few acquaintances but I either don't get to see them or I cannot see them/be around them all the time, and even then I sometimes still feel alone. So I was going to suggest that if you ever wanted a bit of company or to have someone to talk to or let all your rants out, then I'm a very good listener and wouldn't mind coming around, IMing or whatever. Or if you're in Halls too, I know that calls between Oadby halls are free- I've been making very good use of that! Or if all goes pot belly up, we might end up sitting in an uncomfortable silence with forced conversation far and few inbetween :p: seeing as I'm really introverted, shy and not forward at all!:p:

It was just a thought anyhow.:o:
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I had a great start to the week on Monday... I could say that, but i'd be lying :mad:

I've lost £30 worth of frozen food because I accidentally turned my freezer off and not my laptop... When I realised it was all defrosted so I thought, I'll phone the lads and see if that fancy a little bit of a party. They all had dates or didn't want to come. This is really getting to me now because nobody wants to socialise with me anymore :cries: I'm getting tired of life in general, even to go to work is a struggle now. Although the temptation of complimentary cups of tea and a free hot breakfast doesn't keep me in bed long

Family tension is in plentiful supply whenever I go home. I get bored of it because I like seeing my parents but an arguement is guarenteed to happen.

I posted a thread in GD not so long ago about sharing tables. The amount of people having a go at me was insane. But one person is right. I don't like people. But if people didn't treat me like **** all my life, Maybe I would be more sociable. I have my own flat, I have supportive family (sometimes anyway), I travel first class, I don't have much of a social life. All except the latter, I am God Damn Proud Of!

Even though i'm proud that i'm living on my own, I still feel like i'm heading back towards a nervous breakdown, time for some time off my thinks. But then again. Lots of work has come in which i'm enjoying, if only my personal life was as good and my medical problems weren't so troublesome :\
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I just wondered whether you remembered me or not because I get very lonely alot too and I'm at the same University as you, and staying in Halls too.

It was just a thought anyhow.:o:
really? i had no idea! I'm in Beaumont, where are you? i'll send ye a PM...


edit: well, I tried to, but it said your inbox is full. You'll have to PM me, I guess!
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I have to pass exams to change course. There's no way I can manage two more years of this ****ty course. But I just can't work. I can't focus at all, I keep crying: now I'm listening like music like an emo ****er and crying. Part of me is saying to stop taking the ******* meds, ever since I started I feel like I dropped at least 10 IQ points, I used to be so intelligent now I'm finding it impossible to read a single page or even follow debates on another forum I frequent. I'm a total mess. I'm going to fail. Drop out again. Lose the one person who matters to me. Probably take up drugs. **** my life up along the same lines I've been doing since I was 14. I thought **** had changed, nothing's changed except now I'm more thick and I have to pop pills every night to stop me being crazy.
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I have to pass exams to change course. There's no way I can manage two more years of this ****ty course. But I just can't work. I can't focus at all, I keep crying: now I'm listening like music like an emo ****er and crying. Part of me is saying to stop taking the ******* meds, ever since I started I feel like I dropped at least 10 IQ points, I used to be so intelligent now I'm finding it impossible to read a single page or even follow debates on another forum I frequent. I'm a total mess. I'm going to fail. Drop out again. Lose the one person who matters to me. Probably take up drugs. **** my life up along the same lines I've been doing since I was 14. I thought **** had changed, nothing's changed except now I'm more thick and I have to pop pills every night to stop me being crazy.
Does the uni / exam board know about all the medical problems? They would probably give quite a bit of lee-way about needing a 2:1.

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Does the uni / exam board know about all the medical problems? They would probably give quite a bit of lee-way about needing a 2:1.

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My department does, but the department I'm wanting to transfer into doesn't. Thing is the head of department was all "you need a 2:1 as we have an obligation to our other students that you won't drag them down in seminars etc" sort of thing so I don't think they'd be happy about allowing lee-way. Especially if I can't cope now I probably won't cope next september either anyway.

How are you? Thanks for the hugs
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