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    (Original post by beanbrain)
    This is a tough time of year for everyone in teaching, and it is OK to be feeling the way you do!!

    As an NQT in a primary setting, I have been feeling similar myself - like I'm not doing enough for the kids, in spite of the 60 hour weeks I am consistently putting in. The fact that I am the first one there most mornings and the last one there, aside from the headteacher and the caretaker, still didn't feel like I'm doing a good enough job. Fortunately, when I discussed this with my mentor, she showed me some data and looked at some of the books with me, reassuring me that I was doing OK.

    However, I am very lucky to have someone who takes the time to listen to me and help me. Without the other teachers at my school, I would be feeling much, much worse than I have been. We're a small school and so there aren't many of us, but we have really good relationships and know exactly who to go to for which support. I think this is a really key part of teaching - making sure that you have a good support network both at school and at home. Having friends who know how I'm feeling because they have felt it themselves makes my life so much better when I can have a rant Similarly, the right team of teachers in a school means that your work is appreciated - I actually cannot count the times in even just 7 or 8 weeks that someone from the SLT has told me that I'm doing really well, or complimented some aspect of my teaching practise. Yes, some teachers are treated badly - but not all!

    In terms of feeling bored... can't say I've felt that since I started teaching! Except for one day so far, when we had to do maths all day... that day, it was confirmed to me that I am cut out more for Primary than Secondary, because I get to teach so many different subjects instead of just one or two all day long! Is it possible that the boredom is linked to just having one subject?

    Alternatively, it is important to make sure that you can have fun in your lessons, and if you have fun then your students are likely to respond positively to it, which will show in your teaching, progress, assessment etc. etc. Maybe something for you to focus on would be planning lessons that are fun for you? That might help with so many of the negative feelings you are having

    Keep going - even if teaching isn't for you in the end, there are so many positives that you could take away from the PGCE year if you stick at it.
    Thanks for this. I've just spent another day crying. I don't know what is wrong with me - I've now cried everyday for two weeks and more and more everyday. The minute I think of school I cry but i enjoy being in front of the class, and I enjoy leanring all about education, I think I just hate planning especially Powerpoint.. I'm going to try and see a councillor at uni when I'm next in as I've never felt this low, I went through a bad phase before starting and avoided seeing a doctor because of the whole fitness to teach thing (I've suffered from anxiety and depression in the past - but this feels a lot more intense) so I'm wondering if this actually is actually is depression that I've just bottled up too long since I have no motivation to do anything other than school or sleep.
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    (Original post by kpwxx)
    Although it doesn't seem like there's anything wrong with your current placement, it could be that it's just not suited to you as a teacher. The school that you're in can make a huge difference to how you feel about teaching, so if you feel comfortable doing this I'd definitely advise trying out the second placement too.

    I absolutely know what you mean about the thanks/recognition for your work. Sadly, in most of the education sector (from what I've seen), it's taken as a given that you will give above and beyond and always put work first, do extra, and almost never does anyone say 'It was really good that you stepped up and did that'. It's just expected, and if you don't do it you fall behind and get in trouble. Not that everyone in charge doesn't recognise the good work, it's just that it's done so much that it doesn't 'stand out' and people have no time or resources to really recognise it. If you do something really well, usually it will result in being asked to do more because you're good at it (without an increase in pay, new title, more time to do it etc). I didn't notice it so much when teaching but having moved on to another job where my boss will say to me directly 'Thank you for doing that. We think it's really great that you did this, keep it up.' and maybe I'll get a pay rise. I know that extra effort I put in is appreciated, rather than simply required.

    You might like to find someone to talk to in person about how you're feeling... it could help you work your feelings out and, if you're concerned about possible depression it could help re-assure you or let you get help. I certainly felt very down at times when training, but not in the same way as I would have with depression (at least, as I understand it, not having suffered with it personally). You could speak to your GP, confide in a friend, family member or tutor (the tutors will have seen these sorts of feelings before and can probably re-assure you) or you could call a helpline such as the Education Support Partnership https://www.educationsupportpartnership.org.uk/ (contains what used to be the Teacher Support Network, providing support and a listening ear for teachers feeling like they need someone to talk to).
    Thanks - I am going to make an appt with a councillor at uni and potentially with my doctor. I mentioned in another post jst above that I have suffered from anxiety and depression before - but this time it's a lot more intense. It's like it's paralysing, just going onto a computer to plan or stepping foot in school feels like so much effort. Today is my birthday and I literally wanted to do nothing. I'm wondering as before starting the course I had felt a bit down for some time but avoided the doctor because of the whole fitness to teach thing.
    Basically I suffer from a pituary tumour and stopped medication (dopamine agonists) at my docs reccomendation this time last year and went through pretty bad withdrawal which left me feeling really low and unwilling to do anything, I got better after a few weeks but not 100% and I'm wondering if maybe I just need the extra dopamine... When I took medication I did actually feel awesome, at least I have y regular appt with my consultant for that next week, maybe I just need to start those again.
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    (Original post by pgce113)
    Thanks for this. I've just spent another day crying. I don't know what is wrong with me - I've now cried everyday for two weeks and more and more everyday. The minute I think of school I cry but i enjoy being in front of the class, and I enjoy leanring all about education, I think I just hate planning especially Powerpoint.. I'm going to try and see a councillor at uni when I'm next in as I've never felt this low, I went through a bad phase before starting and avoided seeing a doctor because of the whole fitness to teach thing (I've suffered from anxiety and depression in the past - but this feels a lot more intense) so I'm wondering if this actually is actually is depression that I've just bottled up too long since I have no motivation to do anything other than school or sleep.
    (Original post by pgce113)
    Thanks - I am going to make an appt with a councillor at uni and potentially with my doctor. I mentioned in another post jst above that I have suffered from anxiety and depression before - but this time it's a lot more intense. It's like it's paralysing, just going onto a computer to plan or stepping foot in school feels like so much effort. Today is my birthday and I literally wanted to do nothing. I'm wondering as before starting the course I had felt a bit down for some time but avoided the doctor because of the whole fitness to teach thing.
    Basically I suffer from a pituary tumour and stopped medication (dopamine agonists) at my docs reccomendation this time last year and went through pretty bad withdrawal which left me feeling really low and unwilling to do anything, I got better after a few weeks but not 100% and I'm wondering if maybe I just need the extra dopamine... When I took medication I did actually feel awesome, at least I have y regular appt with my consultant for that next week, maybe I just need to start those again.
    As someone who went through years of social anxiety and borderline depression, I do know how it feels. The intensity of it is likely to be enhanced by the fact that you have quite a lot to do, and not very much experience - the desire to get it right means that your anxiety is greater due to the worry that you won't get it right, even though you know that it is unreasonable for you to be perfect because you are just starting out! At least, this is very much how I felt, and to an extent how I feel now.

    For me, the bonus is my work environment. As much as I work through lunches and keep to myself most of the time because I want to get all my work done (taking on Year 6 for an NQT year might not have been the smartest decision I ever made ), it's always lovely to be in the staff room on the odd occasion, or go to the staff meeting every week and have a bit of a chat. And my weekly meeting with my mentor is always good, because she's so supportive of my practice and how I manage things.

    It strikes me that you need to find that support somewhere, and if it isn't in teaching then it will be somewhere else. But I think you are very sensible to be seeing a councillor, and if you have had medical issues that cause such effects as you mentioned before, then it's an avenue you should explore. It would be regrettable to miss out on something that you actually enjoy, simply because the opportunity for help was missed!

    If you are enjoying being at the front of the class, but not so much the planning of it... have you asked for help from your tutor/mentor. It is very early in the day for you as a teacher, and they shouldn't begrudge giving you that extra bit of help with planning, especially if you are finding it hard and are trying desperately to do a good job!
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    (Original post by beanbrain)
    As someone who went through years of social anxiety and borderline depression, I do know how it feels. The intensity of it is likely to be enhanced by the fact that you have quite a lot to do, and not very much experience - the desire to get it right means that your anxiety is greater due to the worry that you won't get it right, even though you know that it is unreasonable for you to be perfect because you are just starting out! At least, this is very much how I felt, and to an extent how I feel now.

    For me, the bonus is my work environment. As much as I work through lunches and keep to myself most of the time because I want to get all my work done (taking on Year 6 for an NQT year might not have been the smartest decision I ever made ), it's always lovely to be in the staff room on the odd occasion, or go to the staff meeting every week and have a bit of a chat. And my weekly meeting with my mentor is always good, because she's so supportive of my practice and how I manage things.

    It strikes me that you need to find that support somewhere, and if it isn't in teaching then it will be somewhere else. But I think you are very sensible to be seeing a councillor, and if you have had medical issues that cause such effects as you mentioned before, then it's an avenue you should explore. It would be regrettable to miss out on something that you actually enjoy, simply because the opportunity for help was missed!

    If you are enjoying being at the front of the class, but not so much the planning of it... have you asked for help from your tutor/mentor. It is very early in the day for you as a teacher, and they shouldn't begrudge giving you that extra bit of help with planning, especially if you are finding it hard and are trying desperately to do a good job!
    Yeh I've had a chat with my both my mentors and my tutor, again it's really hard for me to pinpoint exactly what is making me miserable - hence why I'm wondering if it's my medical issues or depression. I've been told I have potential, that I'm on the right track and I've been told my planning is absolutely fine - I just don't enjoy doing it, basically I just wish I could just have lessons ready and just stand in front of the class and not deal with anything else....

    I dunno, let's see how it all goes... less than 5 weeks to go then I have a new placement, and I may *hopefully* start to feel better by then. Whatever it takes I really want to make it until the end of the course- at least that way I will have it under my belt and it gives me 6 more months and experience in a different school to make a final decision on whether this is definitely for me.
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    (Original post by pgce113)
    Yeh I've had a chat with my both my mentors and my tutor, again it's really hard for me to pinpoint exactly what is making me miserable - hence why I'm wondering if it's my medical issues or depression. I've been told I have potential, that I'm on the right track and I've been told my planning is absolutely fine - I just don't enjoy doing it, basically I just wish I could just have lessons ready and just stand in front of the class and not deal with anything else....

    I dunno, let's see how it all goes... less than 5 weeks to go then I have a new placement, and I may *hopefully* start to feel better by then. Whatever it takes I really want to make it until the end of the course- at least that way I will have it under my belt and it gives me 6 more months and experience in a different school to make a final decision on whether this is definitely for me.
    I'm not sure whether any one likes lesson planning...! I think it starts being a bit easier once you get past NQT, because then you have a years worth of plans to fall back on and just adapt as you need, if possible. At this point, it's more difficult because everything is started from scratch. It does get easier and easier, I promise!
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    For some reason, getting my teacher reference number makes this whole thing seem more real than all the hours of teaching practice combined.
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    Hi,
    We didn't get October half term off in Leicester Uni but have Feb half term off (to allow us to start our big uni assignment - in old money it's a 'reading week'.
    Think we are in uni at least part of the May one.
    Always tricky to compare! I am in uni on Fridays (as are all the science teacher trainees) but the humanities guys are off - grass is always greener!
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    It's funny to see how people stopped posting after they started getting their second placements..

    My Easter break just started and I'm unable to enjoy it because I'm so stressed. I woke up realising that I forgot to man the detention I set my year 10 class yesterday (last day of term) Have you ever heard of a teacher forgetting to turn up for detention??
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    I think that probably happens more than we think.
    I'm just so tired, falling asleep whilst typing lesson plans - at home I hasten to add.
    My own children asked me what super power I would like (they are primary age) and I said the ability to stop time so I could get my jobs done. They then told me that was a rubbish super power.
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    (Original post by Dragonfly07)
    It's funny to see how people stopped posting after they started getting their second placements..

    My Easter break just started and I'm unable to enjoy it because I'm so stressed. I woke up realising that I forgot to man the detention I set my year 10 class yesterday (last day of term) Have you ever heard of a teacher forgetting to turn up for detention??
    More often than you think!
    I did not realise I had a cover lesson until the last 10 minutes of it, I'm sure Year 11s will remember me for this!

    We are only human.
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    How are people doing for jobs? I just secured my first one this week. In year 6! Before the lesson I had never taught above year 3 before, but I am excited to start.
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    Well done JamieInPompey!
    I've got my secondary science job sorted out for the school where I'm currently on placement so it feels like a really, really long induction (in a good way). 🤗
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    (Original post by JamieInPompey)
    How are people doing for jobs? I just secured my first one this week. In year 6! Before the lesson I had never taught above year 3 before, but I am excited to start.
    Well done! As a current NQT in Year 6, I'm happy to give you advice or (if you want) warnings!! 2-form entry school, or 1?
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    Motivation to finish final assignment is none existent. 2500 words isn't a problem. Creating, gathering, annotating and scanning the supporting evidence is taking forever :albertein:
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    (Original post by JaneBaratheon)
    Motivation to finish final assignment is none existent. 2500 words isn't a problem. Creating, gathering, annotating and scanning the supporting evidence is taking forever :albertein:
    Keep going! Not long now!
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    I attempted an FE PGCE a couple of years ago (I was unable to complete it due the course being very poorly organised which had an impact on my mental health). I'm better now and considering applying somewhere else to complete the course but I'm worried that it'll be too much for me. Any advice please?
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    (Original post by gemmam)
    I attempted an FE PGCE a couple of years ago (I was unable to complete it due the course being very poorly organised which had an impact on my mental health). I'm better now and considering applying somewhere else to complete the course but I'm worried that it'll be too much for me. Any advice please?
    I'm so pleased to read this! Glad you're feeling ready to finish it off

    Contact your course provider and let them know that you have mental health stuff that could creep back in again when stressed. I was honest with mine and it made a world of difference regarding assessments. Don't let yourself work too much. I know that's easier said than done as a teacher (I'm NQT +1 now and just recovering from four months off for what was pretty much a breakdown), but working too hard and not disclosing conditions are the absolute worst thing you can do.

    Remember that it's possible to extend a placement so if you need that to take a bit of pressure off yourself then go for it. You've seen what a badly managed course looks like and from what I can remember badly managed doesn't quite cover it. You may find you thrive with a course that actually works for you.

    Good luck!
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    Could I please moan for a bit?...
    Cut my thumb pretty badly so it's numb, need surgery, couldn't have happened at a worse time!
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    (Original post by lantan)
    Could I please moan for a bit?...
    Cut my thumb pretty badly so it's numb, need surgery, couldn't have happened at a worse time!
    Ouch. How did you do it?
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    (Original post by tory88)
    Ouch. How did you do it?
    Glass cafetiere shattered in my hands - yuk!
 
 
 
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