It hurts. Make it go away. Please.
No really, is everything ok?
The one person that I thought loved me and wanted to be with me has left me to get through the hardest part of my life and not only has he left me, but he's also made part of this happen and my world is crumbling around me and I'm scared and I hurt and I don't know who I am or what I want anymore. Getting out of bed everyday is so hard. I'm looking after my brother at the moment and he was complaining on Friday that I needed to do the washing up and asking why tea wasn't ready yet and I just turned round and screamed "I don't want to get out of bed every morning. Just getting out of bed and having a shower and getting dressed is difficult enough. I can't even eat properly anymore, let alone do washing up and tidying the house." The only reason I'm forcing myself to do this is because people keep telling it's going to get better. I don't want to die, all I want is to stop hurting. My life is falling apart and it scares me more than I can say. I so desperately want to be happy.