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    I don't know what is happening. I always feel someone's there. I don't feel any emotions. I don't want to do anything just stay in my room where no one bothers me or speak to me. I don't want any human contact. My head always feel heavy. I always feel stressed about I don't even know what. Sometimes I just want to scream and cry. Recently I've been getting really angry and I have to punch walls to calm myself down.
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    So I moved into Supported Accommodation last week and had the internet installed yesterday. Now at least I won't be sitting in my room staring at the wall all the time and actually have something to do. Things seem to be going OK but I feel like I'm missing the people who I normally spent so much time around and I feel really lonely which is weird because I used to be able to cope with being on my own for weeks without any complaints. I guess the problem is that I know I'll be on my own pretty much all the time now so it's really starting to weigh down on me. Not sure what to do. I guess I need things to keep me occupied but even doing things I used to enjoy I don't really enjoy them as much as I used to.
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    I've lately been feeling extremely resentful of my mother for beating me and my sisters when we were children. I know it happened 15+ years ago, and I know she had anger issues that she couldn't control at times, but I can't seem to forgive her completely because although I grew up fine, my younger sister is depressed and self harms and I feel like my mother is partly at fault for it - although she obviously never wanted that to happen.
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    (Original post by Airmed)
    Just found out my English tutor from last semester died of a short illness on Friday past.
    I am really sorry to hear that. It's always difficult losing anyone you know or just met
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    (Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
    Anyone ever tried a depression support group? If so, how was it for you?

    Lonliness is a big trigger of my depression, and I've tried many ways to battle it but with not much luck. I've found a depression support group in my area and I'm thinking of going along to try it. Part of me hopes to make friends there, but even I I don't, then at least it might help in other ways?
    I wonder if they have something like that in America. Most Americans are extremely repressed
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    I've spent my whole summer so far lying in bed. I feel lonely and I don't want to do anything, and I do absolutely *******s all. If I even get into uni I don't want to go because it'll be wasted feeling like this. I wish I'd dropped out of school when it started to affect my mental health. Therapy doesn't work anymore, I had to bin my medication because I felt like I'd kill myself, and idk what to do now. The worst part is I don't even have a reason for feeling like this anymore.
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    (Original post by JordanL_)
    I've spent my whole summer so far lying in bed. I feel lonely and I don't want to do anything, and I do absolutely *******s all. If I even get into uni I don't want to go because it'll be wasted feeling like this. I wish I'd dropped out of school when it started to affect my mental health. Therapy doesn't work anymore, I had to bin my medication because
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    I felt like I'd kill myself
    , and idk what to do now. The worst part is I don't even have a reason for feeling like this anymore.
    How long were you one meds?
    They can often make things seem worse before getting better, but generally thats only for a couple of weeks

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    (Original post by PandaWho)
    How long were you one meds?
    They can often make things seem worse before getting better, but generally thats only for a couple of weeks
    I tried various ones since January. Most of them I gave 3-4 weeks but a couple I came off earlier due to side effects. The last ones made me feel genuinely closer to doing something bad than I've ever felt so I just didn't feel like it was safe to keep going. Although I think I'd been on them about 2 weeks at that point anyway.

    I didn't even used to need meds, I was able to get better with some time off school and applying what I'd learned in CBT but it just doesn't work anymore.
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    My OCD has decided to let me enjoy my nighttimes again!
    It's nice to just be able to get a good nights sleep and not feel tired in the morning!
    So satisfying!
    It's definitely starting to take a back step in my life. It's actually starting to disappear! I'm actually quite shocked by that! Happy but shocked!
    My therapist has made this possible! I'm genuinely astounded by how good he is!
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    Anxiety has me awake already.
    I really don't wanna go to work today when I'm like this. :cry: but I have to because I need the money. :hide:
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    i still have to sort out forms for esa and university. there's a voice telling me i'm going to **** it up and i can't get over it. my mum once told me to get a grip and 'put my big girl panties on' before she knew i was unwell. it was ****ing emasculating and this voice is constantly using it against me when i can't bring myself to do things. i hate this so much
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    I got a letter in yesterday saying my ESA medical has been cancelled and they will be in touch with another appointment date. I'll still get paid up until that appointment, won't I? I just want the medical over with. Sick of stressing over it
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    (Original post by Spock's Socks)
    I got a letter in yesterday saying my ESA medical has been cancelled and they will be in touch with another appointment date. I'll still get paid up until that appointment, won't I? I just want the medical over with. Sick of stressing over it
    Yes you will still get paid.
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    I feel like my depression is coming back :sad: :grumble:

    Familiar feelings and behaviours... I literally spent the past 3/4 days either in bed or drinking and now that I've stopped, I feel really sad and stuck. I'm terrified. Especially since I'm supposed to be discussing my "last session date" with my therapist today because I'm turning 18 next week and will no longer be with CAHMS/My really good therapist. AND I feel like I am literally on square 1 - Months of recovering and getting back on my feet and changing my mindset and all for WHAT? ME TO GO BACK TO FREAKING SQUARE ONE?

    The thing that annoys me the most is that I am inflicting part of this on myself by not taking my medication. I have not taken it for a while now and it didn't make much of a difference before but now I feel like if I take it, the sad feeling will go away even though that is not necessary true. I don't know what stops me everyday since I now have a daily reminder.

    I feel so sick and depressed :cry2:

    I also feel really lonely which may??? have triggered it. Although I know the main cause. I feel like I have no one to reach out too. All of my "friends" or people who I used to rely on are no longer there because they either slowly faded or revealed their true selves which caused me to cut them off. This is one of the biggest problems because what helped my depression last time was having people to talk to and to connect with and rely on and trust and now that foundation has just crumbled slowly before my eyes in the past month or so. I feel like I am as lonely as I was 2 year ago... when I first went looking for friends on the internet :lol: I still have people who I would still call my true friends (internet friends) which I am grateful for, about 3 of them but unfortunately they're all too far (distance wise) and too busy... or so it seems that way anyway.

    I really don't want to go down this hill again.
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    (Original post by bluemadhatter)
    I feel like my depression is coming back :sad: :grumble:

    Familiar feelings and behaviours... I literally spent the past 3/4 days either in bed or drinking and now that I've stopped, I feel really sad and stuck. I'm terrified. Especially since I'm supposed to be discussing my "last session date" with my therapist today because I'm turning 18 next week and will no longer be with CAHMS/My really good therapist. AND I feel like I am literally on square 1 - Months of recovering and getting back on my feet and changing my mindset and all for WHAT? ME TO GO BACK TO FREAKING SQUARE ONE?

    The thing that annoys me the most is that I am inflicting part of this on myself by not taking my medication. I have not taken it for a while now and it didn't make much of a difference before but now I feel like if I take it, the sad feeling will go away even though that is not necessary true. I don't know what stops me everyday since I now have a daily reminder.

    I feel so sick and depressed :cry2:

    I also feel really lonely which may??? have triggered it. Although I know the main cause. I feel like I have no one to reach out too. All of my "friends" or people who I used to rely on are no longer there because they either slowly faded or revealed their true selves which caused me to cut them off. This is one of the biggest problems because what helped my depression last time was having people to talk to and to connect with and rely on and trust and now that foundation has just crumbled slowly before my eyes in the past month or so. I feel like I am as lonely as I was 2 year ago... when I first went looking for friends on the internet :lol: I still have people who I would still call my true friends (internet friends) which I am grateful for, about 3 of them but unfortunately they're all too far (distance wise) and too busy... or so it seems that way anyway.

    I really don't want to go down this hill again.
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    Hi, I read your post on the Mental Health Thread and I really hope you feel better soon. No matter what you feel about your medication, make sure you take it. Things will begin to get back on track, I promise. Also sorry to hear about what may have happened between you and those close to you, causing you guys to drift apart. You're feeling sad because you're thinking about too many sad things, but try and think of positive things to get a different mindset. I know there are many users on here whom you could talk to for support, and I'm also here if need be. Yes, I don't know you so well and I apologise if I come across as annoying, but there is support :hugs: You're a beautiful girl and I think you're strong if you've managed to stay postive/ have been getting better for so many months. You can definitely do it again. Love always,
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    I'm so sick of feeling miserable all the time :sigh: I don't get why this has happened again, it's not fair. :sad:
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    (Original post by usycool1)
    I'm so sick of feeling miserable all the time :sigh: I don't get why this has happened again, it's not fair. :sad:
    :console: I know what you mean Is there anything bugging you or anything on your mind?
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    :console: I know what you mean Is there anything bugging you or anything on your mind?
    Thanks I just feel like no one around me IRL is understanding me right now and results in me unjustly taking my frustrations out on others. Now they're all ignoring me. I used to be a very patient person but now I feel horrible.
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    (Original post by bluemadhatter)

    I also feel really lonely which may??? have triggered it. Although I know the main cause. I feel like I have no one to reach out too. All of my "friends" or people who I used to rely on are no longer there because they either slowly faded or revealed their true selves which caused me to cut them off. This is one of the biggest problems because what helped my depression last time was having people to talk to and to connect with and rely on and trust and now that foundation has just crumbled slowly before my eyes in the past month or so. I feel like I am as lonely as I was 2 year ago... when I first went looking for friends on the internet :lol: I still have people who I would still call my true friends (internet friends) which I am grateful for, about 3 of them but unfortunately they're all too far (distance wise) and too busy... or so it seems that way anyway.

    I really don't want to go down this hill again.

    Sounds very similar to me Or they just left me when I needed them the most. It sucks eh?

    Hope you feel better soon
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    Love it when I'm left when I need people the most.
 
 
 
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