I'm not really too sure why I'm posting this, in fact I'm having second thoughts even as I'm writing this, as I know a few people on TSR quite well and the thought of them reading this and what they might think scares me.
I'm not sure if i'm worrying about nothing, or what, but I think that I have a problem with eating. I go through phases of feeling like I have to eat literally everything in sight, and even when I've eaten lots feeling the need to consume more. I don't feel like this all the time, sometimes I'm ok for a couple of weeks, and then for a couple of days i'll feel like that all the time. And I seem to want to eat unhealthy stuff when I feel like that, anything really that wouldn't be counted as healthy, and when I feel like that I feel really out of control.
It hasn't really caused me any problems, except it's so hard to resist when I feel like that, I just feel like I have to eat stuff. I am overweight, but that's been a gradual thing really over a few years, and I'm not sure if its as a result of me doing these things, or perhaps just a general decrease in exercise and increase in food.
Tonight I went to the cinema and then I got back and ate a tesco value bar of chocolate (100g) i then ate a bowl of cous cous, some baked beans, some cheese, some macaroni cheese....all within the space of an hour, and I wasn't even hungry, just felt kind of like an overwhelming compulsion to eat.
Not sure why i'm posting this, or anything.....
Ruthie xx