I'm not enjoying college.

Hey people.
I've been in college only a few weeks but i don;t like the place one bit. I have quite bad social anxiety and the classes are just as big as they were at school (30 odd people) i thought they would have been smaller, so it's kinda odd..wonder why som many people went to college to do their highers. meh, probably because of the same reasons i did..because i didn't like school! :biggrin:

But my mum is now moaning that she knew i wouldn't like college any better than scool..and told me i should've stayed on..even though i told her i did get bullied a lot..mostly made fun of because i was extremely quiet. :frown:

I really had my hopes up for this place, that it would be good, or at least copable.
But in my what 2nd week or something i am just hating it! I feel as if my face has never fitted. In among people who i [think] will all do better than me and get As etc. I feel intimidated by pretty much them all as i am so quiet and i can't raise my voice..infact never could, even at school. :mad:

People are definately not as freindly and welcoming as they were at school. I feel as if i'm just a number, and you don't know anyone persoanlyy really, so if i did want to talk i'd probably just email my english tutor as she seemed the nicest..No offence to the other tutors. :frown:

There is a whole bunch of really immature girls in my english class who on the first day wouldn't work with me and laughed at me. [probably because of my anxiety] which i think was really childish. And then they sat and talked about all the bad things they did at school :rolleyes:

Rebels ay

Thing is, my mum is going mad. as she doesn't work and now i feel it's all my fault that i don't like it in college.
she keeps moaning and threatening that she'll cancel all my contracts etc because i'm not going to stay at college. just because she isn't exactly trying her best to find a job, i know it's hard but she seems really happy just to sit around and use me as income..child tax credit and whatever else she's applied for. she wouldn't cope if i moved out. =/
she wanted me to apply for a bursary but i decided not to as i knew if i didn't like the place i'd end up skipping some classes..well i hope i don't but if i don't like it then i might.

So meh, yeah..i don't know what to do. I only had one class today and that was ok-ish but maybe i should have told the college about my anxiety. Then they might not have picked on me to talk so much and apparently i've to do a presentation on friday and read a paragraph to the class. which will [not] be fun since i don't know if i'll even be heard, i'll get shaky, sweaty, embarrased, etc.
I'd like to just do my subjects from home ideally. and have some kinda tutor, then i can avoid the big classes, but there's problems cos if i'm not in full time education my mum will lose benefits..meh.
Strikes me as odd though that you could self teach some things which i'd think would be hard without a teacher, cos i'd just be reading stuff and memorising it probably. Most of the tutors there were the motivated, wacky type that probably love to do things other than sit and let us copy from textbooks all the time. i'd prefer to jsut sit and write as i am shy though!
Oh god.

I wondered if it would be any different in another college, that maybe has smaller classes, and then the other day i thought about going to do that nq social science thing in falkirk, but it doesn't feel good enough. it wouldn't be the same as having highers and i'm not sure if i'd still get to go to uni (if i ever wanted to) when i've done the higher levels of that course, like the hnc/hnd etc..and how long it would take.
I think highers would be better recognised than the hncs etc and i'm not doing my highers for nothing. it does mean a lot to me..and if i can get to uni i'd love to go ='/

So yeah just wondered what i should do. and how i can find out about doing my subjects from home or something, or if i should change colleges and see if it's any better.

This probably sounds silly as if i don't find anywhere else to go in january then i'll have to stick this place anyways, cos i have to get these grades! ..well i want to get them lol. And i don't think i'd get a job honestly so yeah i'd rather stick in education.
xx

Reply 1

LuhLah

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angelbaby91

Hey people.
I've been in college only a few weeks but i don;t like the place one bit. I have quite bad social anxiety and the classes are just as big as they were at school (30 odd people) i thought they would have been smaller, so it's kinda odd..wonder why som many people went to college to do their highers. meh, probably because of the same reasons i did..because i didn't like school! :biggrin:

But my mum is now moaning that she knew i wouldn't like college any better than scool..and told me i should've stayed on..even though i told her i did get bullied a lot..mostly made fun of because i was extremely quiet. :frown:

I really had my hopes up for this place, that it would be good, or at least copable.
But in my what 2nd week or something i am just hating it! I feel as if my face has never fitted. In among people who i [think] will all do better than me and get As etc. I feel intimidated by pretty much them all as i am so quiet and i can't raise my voice..infact never could, even at school. :mad:

People are definately not as freindly and welcoming as they were at school. I feel as if i'm just a number, and you don't know anyone persoanlyy really, so if i did want to talk i'd probably just email my english tutor as she seemed the nicest..No offence to the other tutors. :frown:

There is a whole bunch of really immature girls in my english class who on the first day wouldn't work with me and laughed at me. [probably because of my anxiety] which i think was really childish. And then they sat and talked about all the bad things they did at school :rolleyes:

Rebels ay

Thing is, my mum is going mad. as she doesn't work and now i feel it's all my fault that i don't like it in college.
she keeps moaning and threatening that she'll cancel all my contracts etc because i'm not going to stay at college. just because she isn't exactly trying her best to find a job, i know it's hard but she seems really happy just to sit around and use me as income..child tax credit and whatever else she's applied for. she wouldn't cope if i moved out. =/
she wanted me to apply for a bursary but i decided not to as i knew if i didn't like the place i'd end up skipping some classes..well i hope i don't but if i don't like it then i might.

So meh, yeah..i don't know what to do. I only had one class today and that was ok-ish but maybe i should have told the college about my anxiety. Then they might not have picked on me to talk so much and apparently i've to do a presentation on friday and read a paragraph to the class. which will [not] be fun since i don't know if i'll even be heard, i'll get shaky, sweaty, embarrased, etc.
I'd like to just do my subjects from home ideally. and have some kinda tutor, then i can avoid the big classes, but there's problems cos if i'm not in full time education my mum will lose benefits..meh.
Strikes me as odd though that you could self teach some things which i'd think would be hard without a teacher, cos i'd just be reading stuff and memorising it probably. Most of the tutors there were the motivated, wacky type that probably love to do things other than sit and let us copy from textbooks all the time. i'd prefer to jsut sit and write as i am shy though!
Oh god.

I wondered if it would be any different in another college, that maybe has smaller classes, and then the other day i thought about going to do that nq social science thing in falkirk, but it doesn't feel good enough. it wouldn't be the same as having highers and i'm not sure if i'd still get to go to uni (if i ever wanted to) when i've done the higher levels of that course, like the hnc/hnd etc..and how long it would take.
I think highers would be better recognised than the hncs etc and i'm not doing my highers for nothing. it does mean a lot to me..and if i can get to uni i'd love to go ='/

So yeah just wondered what i should do. and how i can find out about doing my subjects from home or something, or if i should change colleges and see if it's any better.

This probably sounds silly as if i don't find anywhere else to go in january then i'll have to stick this place anyways, cos i have to get these grades! ..well i want to get them lol. And i don't think i'd get a job honestly so yeah i'd rather stick in education.
xx

I'm in college too doing my highers, and I've been diagnosed with GAD because of school, so I know how you feel. My mum was saying the same to me, I'm determined to prove her wrong.

I've actually found it to be pretty good, despite the annoying timetable. I know this will sound harsh, but no matter where you go you'll end up having to face people you don't like, but you have to rise above it and ignore it (I know saying that won't do **** all, but you can always try :smile:

I find concentrating on a passage on my sheet or something helps, it takes your attention away from the voices ) If those little bitches that were making fun of ya aren't doing the work, then the likelihood is that they won't last that long. Do they offer learning support or something similar? That would allow you to study in the library (if they have one) and do your courses there.

I defo think you should tell someone about your social anxiety. Speak to the curriculum leader, or guidance teacher (should both normally be the same person) and see if they can make special arrangements for you. The college should support this and do everything they can to help you. Even emailing your tutors would help, so you could explain the situation. Sometimes they offer highers via open learning, where you do the coursework at home and go in to sit the NABs/Exam, you could ask about that.

They should even have a counselor on campus, which would be very beneficial to you. They could help you overcome your shyness.

I was all nervous on my induction day, and I was speaking to one of the mature students. She told me,"You just really need to come out your shell a bit in college. You need to approach other people and talk a lot more, it ain't going to come to you." And she was right.

You've only been there 2 weeks, maybe you're just expecting the worst? Give it a bit more time to see if you like it or not. And btw, HNCs/HNDs are quite good for getting into Uni, but they're quite a lot of work. HNC = First year uni/AH, HND = Second year uni. You'll be in with a lot more mature people too, so you wouldn't really need to worry about the little bitches.

Anyways, it can and will work out. Just try and find a solution to yer problem, who knows, you might end up loving it :smile:

Reply 2

angelbaby91

OP

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Thanks people [:
I've decided to stick it after i had a word with my tutor today. The college don't seem too keen on me quitting, and it's september lol, so i'll just stay. [:
I really enjoyed history today actually, looks as if it's gonna be interesting, that'll be enough to keep me happy.xx

Reply 3

LuhLah

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angelbaby91

Thanks people [:
I've decided to stick it after i had a word with my tutor today. The college don't seem too keen on me quitting, and it's september lol, so i'll just stay. [:
I really enjoyed history today actually, looks as if it's gonna be interesting, that'll be enough to keep me happy.xx

Kewl babes. Keep us updated :smile:

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