I met this guy at my work last year, and we became close friends very quickly. That was all it ever was as we were both in relationships. But as we were given a project to work on together, which meant late nights etc, we became even closer, and soon I was falling for him. The relationship ended up getting in the way of our real relationships to the point that they thought we were cheating on them(we weren't,physically anyway) The thing is, we never admitted any feelings outright, just hinted at it...
But the deeper the relationship became, the more intense things got. I'd look up in the office and we'd lock eyes...and we'd just stare and stare at eachother. Sometimes I broke contact & I could see him still watching me after it, which I hated as I can't hide feelings well! Other times he'd kind of smile and look confused then look away. Anyway I left work nearly a year ago now, and was glad as it had become too intense. I hadn't seen him since, although we talk a few times a week still.
Then a few nights ago we met after all that time, he greeted me with a huge smile & we hugged for a while. Then, he asked how I was, and the second after I replied, something changed straight away. We just stared into eachother eyes in a magnetic kind of way, I literally felt that I could not look away...but it wasn't in a smiley kind of way, we both went from smiling at eachother to looking in an intense, almost shocked kind of manner. I went home later that night & actually cried about it!! I felt really affected.
Now people will probably say I'm over-reacting, looking into it too much etc etc, but I've never had this with anyone else, not even previous boyfriends. One minute everything is very light-hearted, then suddenly everything changes. The thing is, I'm pretty sure he looks as dumb founded as me. What is this, what does it mean?