I feel so low recently and i have no idea why, i just feel so f-ed up.
Bascially it's the summer hols my exams are over (yay!) i should be enjoying myself but i'm not. I've stayed at home all week and felt worse and worse. I feel like everything i do is wrong, i get a book out from the library-turns out rubbish, get a film out-turns out rubbish. My parents are thinking of divorcing which is messing me up because at ever chance my mum gets she asks who i would live with if they divorced, and then tries to be extra nice to me to make me pick her. My parents think i'm a druggy alcoholic , so they tiptoe round me all the time. I've become a hermit, sitting at home depressed. All my upper-class friends are going out clubbing, and what they dont realise is that im not frikken rich and cant afford to spend £50 every night of the week. Instead of being sympathetic they exclude me even more, even when they know i could be going out with them. Even my best friend has completly ditched me, and thinks shes much "cooler" than me now, cos she goes clubbin gmore (wtf?). To be honest i'm a pretty girl and do get alot of male attention but guys don't seem to like me, and it seems like im never going to find a guy. I'v e stopped eating again so look kind of sick and ill looking. I feel sick to the pit of my stomache and i don't know why, every minute of the day i just want to break down and cry. Literally the high light of my day is going to sleep so i can just forget everything.
I know i sound like a complete ******, but everyone sees me as a happy smily confident person, and it feels like that persons gone. Please reply (i dont know what i expect,but somethings better then nothing)