Regretting being a complete idiot

I usually come to the Oxbridge forums, but there's something I just realised today that's driving me crazy. Unfortunately, my best friend's away, and this forum seems to have all sorts of threads anyway, so I've come to TSR Health and Relationships to get this off my chest. :smile:

(Please do bear with me)

There's this guy I knew from school who I thought was somewhat of a happy-go-lucky flirt, although sometimes I'm surprised when I hear that he's actually quite smart (e.g. scoring the highest on a test on some occasions). He flirted with me from the first day we met, but I've always shrugged it off/rebuffed him (nicely) because I assume he's like that with everyone. Plus we're not from the same social circle (he didn't seem to have the, erm, driven/over-achiever attitude like, well, me and my friends :biggrin:

), and I've found that non-driven/non-over-achiever types often get intimidated by driven/over-achiever types so I've steered clear from those. Now I'm on a gap year, and he's at a top university studying law.

Recently, I met a senior executive for my gap-year job, and the senior executive reminded me so much of him. So today I can't stop thinking about the guy, and looking back, I think I've been a total idiot: I think he actually genuinely liked me. I've always thought that I was just another flirting conquest to him, but now that I think about it, I think I was mistaken. I think he was sincere in trying to get to know me, and I was just too focused, busy, and closed-minded to consider the possibility. One incident I really regret was this one day when I was having a bad day and he tried to walk and talk with me about the class we just came from, and I totally bit his head off and told him to get lost in a very, very mean (albeit non-scandalous) way. I think he was shocked and just quietly left.

Maybe it was just the trigger of meeting someone who's like an older version of him, but I really regret being a total bitch to the guy. I found his blog, and from what I've been reading, I think we actually could've gotten along fantastically.

(Oh, and he's actually kind of cute. :biggrin:

)

So the whole point of this post/thread is just to tell the world what a total idiot I am, not so much for having a story of "The one who got away," but for having a story of "The one you told, 'Go away.'"

Sigh.

(whew, that was a load off my chest) :smile:

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