I dont know how much more i can take. I hate my life at the moment. Coming to uni this year was a mistake, coming back to the UK is the biggest regret. I HATE IT HERE> I WANT THIS ENTIRE COUNTRY TO LET ME LEAVE AND GO BACK TO BEING HAPPY. Its not like there is anythin massively wrong, plenty of people i know are in similar situations and are coping fine but i just dont know if i can take it anymore. I have some 'friends' here but i feel that they dont even know me, and definatly dont care, i miss my friends back home (i grew up overseas and that will always be my home - i dont give a **** what my passport says) i miss feeling warm, safe, secure and at home. I just feel like i have been thrown into enemy territory and i dont know what people expect me to do, or say.. i am english but i dont feel like it, instead i am left feeling alone and trapped for three years in my own version of hell. I was struggling as it was when my family we close enough for me to visit at least once a week, but now they are moving back home and i wont see them for a few months at a time.. that thought terrifies me. I want out but i have no options, my mum says i have to at least hold here till the end of the year but i dont think i can. I am scared, not only of being alone but of myself.. i just want to leave this hellhole and go home... or just leave completely.
...for the 2nd time this year