I'm talking about life-long, deep, meaningful friendships. All my life I have always wanted this. I really want to have just ONE friend who could truly be called my best friend, and to have a whole group of girlfriends would be great. I'm 24 and I've never had a group of girlfriends that I go out clubbing, hang out with or stuff like that. To be honest there was always something I disliked about these so-called friends of mine and I'd be itching to ditch them and find better friends. I don't know if it's a problem with ME or THEM. Maybe I'm too critical and picky. But I just keep thinking there are billions of people on earth and there is no reason why I have to get on with these people just because by some random chance, we found ourselves going to the same school in the same building and were put in a classroom together. Outside circumstances brought us together. I hope you get what I mean.
So... I don't know why I never seem to 'click' with anyone. Actually, there are people with who I click, but it always turns sour eventually. I am good at small talk and breaking the ice with people, as I am friendly, but I have trouble opening up and developing the friendship into something deeper. A couple years back I went through some depression and have always battled with low self-esteem. Now I'm almost fully recovered, but the saying "You can't love other people until you love yourself." might apply to me, do you think?
...Should I go back to school?