i am 16, male.
i am the typical 'nice' guy who can't get a girl, i.e- desperate and will throw my heart at any girl. the one who constantly thinks that this girl is THE girl etc
recently i have been in a rut emotionally (problems at home) and last october i was constantly feeling down, so i started to go on chat rooms.
i "met" 2 girls in particular that i talk to a lot now. we have used cam, mic, added eachother on facebook, myspace the whole lot. i can feel myself changing to who i was 3 months ago, we talk for hours at a time about anything and everything.
one of these girls, who lives in america, i have started actually caring about, in the same way i have cared about a girlfriend in the past (only ever had one girlfriend, a while back!). i am 'smart' enough to realise that i do not have a crush on this american girl but i have a crush on the IDEA of having a crush and caring about someone. it feels as though i have feelings for her, fairly strongly, and i know they are phony.
i want to end this whole thing, not talk to them both and put the whole charade behind me. but i know if i do that then this american girl will get hurt (shes emotional and had a lot of bad times recently, 2 of her best friends died in a car crash, her grandma died, and she has openly stated to me that i keep her going when shes crying and down)
so what can i do? just slowly stop talking to her? i have a feeling that if i stopped talking to her i wouldnt stop thinking about her, talking to her makes me feel great when i'm talking to her.... but like a total fool when i'm not.
she is one of the nicest people i know, character wise, and one of the hottest too!
please pass comments on my situation if you ahve the time, dont hold back as i can take criticism i just wanted some honest opinion and advice.
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