I'm really sorry to hear that. It must be extremely hard for you, and there's no point in keeping your feelings bottled up, and don't ever feel ashamed about the way you're feeling. Everyone copes with things in their own way, and if you feel you're going to cry at everything, it's better to just let that happen.
Things will get better as you say, and you'll be a much stronger person at the end of it.
I hope you feel better soonm and feel free to send a message our way if you need to talk. Chin up!