Over the last few days I've been analysing myself a lot and have a had a **** couple of days, and my self-esteem's starting to shrink.
I have noticed that I am very comfortable/confident when I do stuff with other people; anything from going out, going into town, to uni etc. But when I have to face stuff by myself, even something like sitting in a lecture or meeting new people without being introduced by a friend, I get very self-conscious/feel unworthy. I think this is down to people making me think I am not 'good enough' for their time, as the past couple of days, I haven't been able to make an impression on new people like I usually can. I think this is because I get very nervous so I'm hesitant to fully be myself incase I get judged the way I don't want to be. Also, I don't have a very active sex/love life, and I'm at the age where people are obsessed with it and, IMO, look down on you if you are not "in the game" as such.
I'd really love to be someone who doesn't give a ****, and is comfortable to do things alone (even if it's perceived weird). But I think people can pick up that I'm so unsure of myself, that I feel like a loser, and that I am not someone who is important/will be any use in their lives that they just meet and move on.
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