Pretending to be someone else online Watch

I've pretended to be someone else on a website and somehow fooled this person into thinking I was real. I've started to really like him now and he likes me too.

We've been talking for almost a year now and he has helped me a lot and changed me so much, I don't know what I would do if he wasn't there anymore. I am angry at myself for lying and while he likes me, I am convinced it is because of the person I am pretending to be and not who I truly am.

It would change everything if I confessed and it is so hard because it would he would be so perfect for me because we are so alike and we understand each other. I know I'd be outraged if someone did that to me. I can't carry it on though, and I wanted to end it for ages because I didn't want it to get too far. But I'm so selfish and I'm continuing it even though it would never work out the way I wanted it to and the longer I contenue it the harder it will be for me but I like him so much.

Please can someone give me advice. I am so confused and I don't know what to do to end it, it hurts me so much. This was so difficult to write because I've hidden it for so long and I can see the absurdity behind this story but I wish it was easy to act on.

Which parts of your online persona are fabricated and which is the real you?

Everything except my personality.

Cut yourself off.

more detail but how different could you be unles you changed your sex