I don't even know if i've posted this in the correct forum.
I don't understand what to do, i can't be positive anymore. When i go to school, i become this secure, confident, loud student and i can speak and i express how i feel and i hold strong opinions. But then...Recentley, i've been feeling like i've been living a lie because I feel trapped. I think alot, and i can't help it but i think so much its literally destroying me, because the truth about the world is almost making me want to put my life to an end.
I hold a huge interest in Politics and War and im presentley reading a novel about the Bosnian War and i notice how i start to feel uneasy when it comes to the killing. And i don't mean any sort of uneasy, i mean sick, i put the book away and can't go to sleep. I need to seperate myself from society, because everyday puts me down. I love nature and when the soon shines i feel so blessed and i cry at how beautiful nature is being destroyed by people. I feel i can learn and make a change and refuse to be some one who runs away, but how can i learn if its stressing me out so much? Nobody understands me, i have alot of friends who just think i've lost it. I simply just spent all day crying..confused...
I want to stop this perception of bitterness, i'd love to get out but im 14 and i want to focus on my education. My GCSE's will be coming up again in June and i don't want my attitude to affect my studies.
How do i stop it?
I think im depressed... Watch
- Thread Starter
- 30-01-2010 23:06
- 30-01-2010 23:32
People on the internet can't help you.
Go talk to someone in real life and/or go see your doctor and ask to be referred to a therapist.
- 30-01-2010 23:40
^ Yep you'd be better off seeing a professional.
But yeah, the world for the most half is ******* cancerous and putrid, it's something you learn to fight haha.
- 31-01-2010 13:49
I want to add, most doctors are very sympathetic and dont feel like you are wasting your time. Depression is a bona fides issue and it is treatable. I've been blighted with it for a few years but the meds have helped me. (I'm surprised at myself at admitting that)
- 31-01-2010 13:57
politics is poisonous, you'll be fine if you knew how to hide
- 31-01-2010 14:46
Stay strong. There's a lot of bad in the world but don't let that detract you from what good there is. Reminds me of Desiderata: 'For the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.'
Anyway, stay strong, GCSEs are a stressful time but try and keep strong and positive. I find walking helps me a lot when I'm feeling down, would be especially good as you have such a value for nature. What you're going through seems like a very dark time, but don't worry, things will get better, try and be proactive in changing things so they'll improve (:
- 31-01-2010 14:51
Go see a doctor, there is little we can advise.
- 31-01-2010 14:55
Let laughing Yoga in my sig cheer you up.
- 31-01-2010 14:56
I feel the same as this, and I went to the doctor just the other day and got referred to a counselling group. You could be suffering from mental illness so it's best to get it checked out by a doctor, just in case. Also, good luck in your GCSEs, they really are a breeze compared to A Levels.
- 31-01-2010 14:58
see a doctor. =)
- 31-01-2010 17:02
Well I've got two feelings here - on the one hand I don't want to stop you seeking help if you genuinely have a problem... but I'm really loud normally - you can't shut me up.
But everyone has time alone at home and can get a bit down, or hearing about bad stuff doesn't make you feel great...
So you need to work out if what you have is normal or not...