For a number of years i've wanted to become a nice caring person, wanted to actually learn to care. Because of my childhood, which i dont wish to go into, i learned not to care about much. But i wanted to change. I wanted to care. But god damn people make it so ******* hard it's unreal. Everytime i see someone's upset, i go over and ask whats up, but then it just get's thrown in my face. This has resulted in me now not caring at all now for anyone but myself. Im now stubborn, i have no patience, all because of either peoples sheer stupidity or damn right ignorance. I have little friends now because i've somehow drawn them all away from me, by just being my true self. I asked my friend last week what he thought of me, he replied by saying, "Your a selfish arrogant ******** but i still like you for some reason." This being my best friend here. God damn, i want to care, i really do, but people from where im from, or who i talk to make it so hard. The only silver lining so far is that i've found a new group of friends who are more "mature." More into what im into, computer games etc..
...and how to stay positive