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    Hey guys, I'm currently going through a really tough time in my life at the moment and am really depressed and the thought of suicide is something i keep thinking about. Realistically i know i wont have the nerve to do it and its something i dont want to do but being so low its something that keeps creeping into my head. Has anyone else here ever felt like taking their own life, and if so how did you feel then and how do you feel now? What did you do to lift yourself from depression and thoughts of suicide and do you have any advice for someone in this situation. Any help greatly appreciatied and serious replies only. Feel free to post as anon. aswell, thanks.
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    i thought about it once.
    my thoughts were something along the lines of "now theres a ******* stupid idea".
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    I still do, frequently.
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    Thought about it lots and attempted it twice, once was very very nearly successful. The devastation and upset it caused my family members was enough to make sure I never did it again.
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    never contemplated suicide, but have been pretty sure that my current lifestyle will lead to a relatively early demise (i'm aiming for late 30s early 40s....we'll see)
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    Yep, most days, I tend to settle on 'it's not worth it' because of my young cousins...
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    I thought about it once when i was in a very very low period, but that was years ago. I never actually got to a stage where i planned how to do it or anything, and i guess reality kicked in, i would miss my family and hurt them so much, probably even tear them apart if they started blaming each other, and I thought about how young I was and all the cool wonderful things i still have to do in life
    Even when you are having a bad time, there is always a way out of it that doesnt involve suicide, things always get better, life always works out ok. When i realised that, i also realised that just as easily as I could have taken my life away, I could make it something fantastic too so I became determined at school, worked hard and am at university doing a course I love with lots of friends and a loving boyfriend and have plans to travel. And I couldnt be happier, and if i had gone through with suicide at the time, I would miss all this fantastic stuff
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    Yeah. Mainly "What a daft idea".
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    I used to think a lot about suicide when I was quite unhappy a while back, and I will think about it still in particularly dark/unhappy moments. I know what you mean. I had no real reason to think about suicide, I'd never actually commit suicide, I didn't actually want to commit suicide.. and yet these thoughts about it all the time.

    My own theory on it is that you see so many people talking about it, we're exposed to it - hell we're almost used to suicide. I mean few people are actually unfortunate enough to be close to a suicide, but it's talked about a lot.

    So if you feel depressed... maybe it's just me, but you almost expect yourself to start thinking about it and so you do. Maybe it's a cry for help to yourself.

    Also.. thinking about suicide can be a way of comforting yourself if you're feeling bleak/worthless. Because you can imagine how it would be the wrong choice, how unhappy you would make people; and it reminds you that even though you feel like **** you have some worth.. it's not so bad you actually want to die.

    I tend to wallow in self pity so I guess thoughts of suicide also make my wallowing all the more convincing :p:
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    no. i hope i never do.
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    Yep, I've been there a couple of times.

    The first was at uni a couple of years ago. My life had been pretty crap up until that point, and university seemed like a light at the end of the tunnel. However, a combination of incompetent lecturers and horrible, spiteful, selfish people made it all very depressing. Life was pretty bleak and suicide was on my mind quite a lot. Incidentally, there were a few other suicides at my uni around that time, so I know I wasn't alone. I dropped out (something I should have done much earlier) and took some time out to recover. I also had a fair bit of counselling which really helped.

    I finally managed to get my life back on track and joined another uni. The first year went really well, and things were looking good for the second. Then, one week in to the semester, I was struck by an incurable condition that made every day a living hell. After about a month, I felt like I couldn't take it anymore and began to consider suicide again. However, there is a tiny shred of hope that I may one day recover, and that is enough to keep me going. Life had been crap before and things improved. It can do the same again.

    Like you, I've never really been serious about suicide, for the same reason that I don't walk down dark alleys or go base jumping- my survival instinct is just too strong.
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    I thought about it, but not about doing it.
    I thought about it many times when I read articles about suicide. But I did not really contemplate committing suicide.

    Whatever you do, think about stakeholders (:P, People who would be affected by your completely irrational and batty action.
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    I think about it a lot. less than I used to though. I've tried really working on the things that were making me low - I don't know what to suggest if you have clinical depression with no cause.

    To stop myself I think about my family. I also got a bunch of pets; They're a responsibility that I don't feel could be easily transferred to someone else if I died and it's proved to be a big help for me.
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    I've been to counselling and mentioned that I think about it a fair amount. My counsellor said, not to trivialise, but most people do think about it at one time or another, it's a pretty common thought... kinda made me feel better
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    3 years ago I did as I was at rock bottom. I attempted suicide 7 times but now I'm completely fine and I've not thought about it since I recovered. I got counselling, spent a lot of time with my mum (she took me out almost every day of the summer holidays and at the weekends) and went on AD's. That all helped me to solve the problems that were causing it.
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    I went through a really hard time when i was about 13. I quit school and this was very stressful for me and my family. That was my lowest point. Held a knife up to myself while crying my eyes out. I wanted out!
    Im fine now tho. Im going uni in Sep and cope fine with my course even tho i missed out over three year of edu. Things move on. I think you need to, look at your environment and see what is making you this way, and to have a really good friend.
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    I was on fluoxetine for a while around a year ago. For a few months it had no effect the my doctor upped my dose. What followed were pretty much the worst three weeks of my life. I actually found myself devising a plan to obtain and hoard paracetamol, before my Mum realised what I was planning and dragged me back down the doctor's. I've had a tough time for the past year but I never considered it again, though, I can happily say
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    I think it crosses most peoples mind from time to time, I know it does mine, but I've never properly sat down and seriously planned anything. Just you know, something that pops into my head occasionally as a passing thought "oh god it would be so much easier if I could just top myself"
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    Hey guys, I'm currently going through a really tough time in my life at the moment and am really depressed and the thought of suicide is something i keep thinking about. Realistically i know i wont have the nerve to do it and its something i dont want to do but being so low its something that keeps creeping into my head. Has anyone else here ever felt like taking their own life, and if so how did you feel then and how do you feel now? What did you do to lift yourself from depression and thoughts of suicide and do you have any advice for someone in this situation. Any help greatly appreciatied and serious replies only. Feel free to post as anon. aswell, thanks.
    I tried it once and the humiliation of going to hospital and getting criticised by all my family was enough to stop me from repeating it. You have to think that, if you succeed, all you'll get is an end. That's it, realistically, with no opportunity to learn from mistakes or to sort out a bad situation. But, if you stop to look around the corner, you might find hope, something to strive for. That's what happened with me. I was overwhelmed with loneliness and depression, but I went on holiday for a month to Greece, which made me appreciate life so much, and three months ago, I found an amazing guy who loves me for who I am!
    Just keep thinking positive, and find something to stabilise you. Music, maybe (personally, Fall Out Boy saved me- it is not an emo band, it just has inspiring lyrics!) or concentrating on school/uni, keeping busy or socialising more. Open up to others and express yourself through your identity (clothes/music, etc)- hopefully you'll realise life is a gift- don't waste it, cos you'll never get it back
    I hope this helps- if you need to talk, PM me
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    Couple of points.

    Firstly as you might have gathered. Suicide is definetly selfish as someone else has to clear up the mess and it's a waste.

    Secondly, thinking about suicide CAN be a good thing. It makes you think, all the things you'd want to do if you had the balls, but hey if your gonna kill yourself whats the worst that could go wrong comparitively? Thinking about that makes you LIVE LIFE, and you soon find that you enjoy life again .

    Anything that gets your heart racing
 
 
 
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