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    I think I may have depression, of some sort. But I'm not quite sure. See, for the most part I am fine but t past couple of christmasses I have been close to ending my own life. Very close. But apart from that I'm usually ok.

    I can't remember ever having high self esteem. I've always thought of myself as 'cursed' - doomed to make and lose friends within a matter of months. I have been self harming for a few years now and don't really see myself stopping anytime soon.

    I've been in and out of counselling for years and just when I think it helps me I go back to feeling low, maybe even suicidal, and self harming.

    At the time of posting this I am in one of my better moods, but I'm going back to uni soon (I was seriously depressed at the end of my first semester and had to take a break) and I don't want to screw up again because I want to kill myself. (I'm scared that this time I actually will do it.)

    My family think this is all my fault and that I should just get a grip but it feels like its easier said than done.
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    I think you should from the suicidal and SH point of view, it might help.

    How many sessions of counselling did you have at a time (if you had sessions)?

    It's not all your fault and as you said, it's not that easy.
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    I was with CAMHS for years. Then when I went to college I saw a few different counsellors for a few months at a time.
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    Go to a GP. They might just give you anti-depressants, but they could refer you to a mental health specialist which is really what you want.
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    I had a terrible experience with CAMHS! It might be worth if you can seeing if they can extend the sessions. My counsellor gave me 24 and then said after a 2 week break that she was gonna do another 24 which really helped.
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    I'm not actually seeing a counsellor at the moment and I'm not sure if I want to. I'm worried that counselling won't solve anything. If it could then it would've helped already.
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    You need counselling to get you to realise that you're not doomed. Just that you're living a real life and it's ******* hard.
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    Maybe, maybe not. Sometimes you need to keep trying with it and with different counsellors until it clicks. It might also depend on what you want out it.
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    It is worth seeing your GP because they will know about the different options available to you. There may be a service you're not aware of etc.
 
 
 
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