obsessive thoughts

this might sound a bit weird, but i'll say it anyway. lately i've been having a lot of thoughts about death without any real reason or motivation and keep thinking every day will be my last and wonder if things are going to kill me etc. everytime i start to feel happy, i kind of feel alarmed that something bad will happen.. really strange i know.. also am quite a bad hypochondriac.. my mother thinks it is because i read too many holocaust books etc. i also keep getting scared one of my friends'll get hurt or something, and of the stability in my life being lost. do you think this is related to me going to uni soon and feeling insecure about it? sorry to burden you with my weird thought cycles :rolleyes:

Reply 1

Jonatan

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Lirael Abhorsen

this might sound a bit weird, but i'll say it anyway. lately i've been having a lot of thoughts about death without any real reason or motivation and keep thinking every day will be my last and wonder if things are going to kill me etc. everytime i start to feel happy, i kind of feel alarmed that something bad will happen.. really strange i know.. also am quite a bad hypochondriac.. my mother thinks it is because i read too many holocaust books etc. i also keep getting scared one of my friends'll get hurt or something, and of the stability in my life being lost. do you think this is related to me going to uni soon and feeling insecure about it? sorry to burden you with my weird thought cycles :rolleyes:

Allright I can't beleive I am about to quote a bond movie but: "There's no point in living if you can't feel alive." Sure you may die tomorrow or maybe in a hundred years, but don't let that put you off having a good time until it happens. Live your life as if you were to die of old age cus otherwise irony will just come to hunt you and make sur thats exactly what is going to happen and you will just feel as if you wasted it all being afraid of death. Yep bad things may happento anyone, and altho you should try to avoid it from happening theres really no point to be sad about it before it actually happens. **** happens, dont worry , be happy and all of that ...

Reply 2

buttons7

1

i'm sure everyone has thoughts like that at some point (i know i do), because, if you think about it, dying is pretty easy to do, even by accident. but obsessing about that kind of thing is silly and pointless (unless you plan to use such depressing thoughts in a creative way). it's probably a subconscious thing - related to the books about holocausts, and maybe to do with uni. only last week i was discussing the possibility of the end of the world within my lifetime (cheerful, i know) and i'm almost certain that that was because i'd just read 'how i live now' by meg rosoff which, combined with the bombings recently, suddenly seemed very plausible, and reminded me about the general impermenance of things. anyway, i decided that there was no point dwelling unnecessarily on such things, as there is nothing i can do about terrorism. i think this is the attitude you need to adopt. it's true that you could die tomorrow (as could anybody) but worrying about it wouldn't change it, and all you'd do is waste perfectly good living time. try thinking about how lucky you are to be alive (and imagine how weird it would be if you weren't, because not only would you not be alive, but you'd never know that you had not been alive because you would never have been born and therefore you wouldn't actually exist). i know it's weird when you start thinking like that, and not particularly pleasant. if i were you, i'd find someone to talk to when you feel like discussing that kind of stuff, have a bit of a rant, and then find the cheeriest book or film that you can and read/watch it whilst pointedly blanking out any hyperchondriac-esque thoughts. it doesn't always work, but it can help.

Reply 3

st8_of_mind

lol, don't worry about it. I had similar thoughts years ago but then it passed. Just think, most (99% and above) people live to an old age, and die peacefully in their homes... the chance of you or any of your friends dying suddenly is extremely unlikely.

Besides, if death does happen to fall on you, there's nothing you can do to prevent or predict it. So just enjoy life as it comes.

Reply 4

Pepaim

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Lirael Abhorsen

this might sound a bit weird, but i'll say it anyway. lately i've been having a lot of thoughts about death without any real reason or motivation and keep thinking every day will be my last and wonder if things are going to kill me etc. everytime i start to feel happy, i kind of feel alarmed that something bad will happen.. really strange i know.. also am quite a bad hypochondriac.. my mother thinks it is because i read too many holocaust books etc. i also keep getting scared one of my friends'll get hurt or something, and of the stability in my life being lost. do you think this is related to me going to uni soon and feeling insecure about it? sorry to burden you with my weird thought cycles :rolleyes:

Its ok your normal! I had same sought of thing last summer and I was seriously screwed up about it for a while. If it is disrupting your life and making you feel really unhappy, you should talk to your doctor and they may be able to get you some counselling or something. I ended up being diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) which about 2% of population have in varying intensities, but I went to counselling and took tablets for a couple of weeks for my panic attacks and im fine now!

Try not to worry to much and let me know if you want anymore info.

Reply 5

hypomania

10

Try doing stuff to take your mind off it, like I did :smile:

Reply 6

Lirael Abhorsen

OP

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thanks guys this has all been really helpful.. itsnice to hear i'm not alone and Pepaim its refreshing to hear how you've put it all behind you good good :biggrin:

ps still alive :smile:

Reply 7

Saichu

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Death - it's what's for dinner.

Really, though, I may even guess it's quite normal to have at least some stage like this. I'd take the distraction advice: you can't die when you're having fun :wink:

You might not want to contemplate your way out of it, like I do..

Reply 8

matrix99

get a boyfriend :ninja:

Reply 9

hypomania

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matrix99

get a boyfriend :ninja:

whats with the " :ninja:

" all the time? :confused:

Reply 10

matrix99

u never know who is watching :ninja:

Reply 11

Pepaim

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matrix99

get a boyfriend :ninja:

lol!
That could help if its the right person, not just for sake of it!
My bf made things worse a lot of the time!

Reply 12

Suzie

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I know this sounds kind of sad but i used to be really scared of the whole death topic and i think i still am, it used to be like id cry myself to sleep at night because the thought of it scared me so much... but i suppose i just dealt with it and theres the odd time when i think about it because of a relative passing or whatever but its natural.

Reply 13

-sophie-

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It sounds like OCD to me, I have mild OCD I think. It runs in families and my Mum has it bad. I constantly find my self repeating rituals but I don't let it take over my life, when it does you need to see your GP.

Reply 14

Ron Stoppable

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-sophie-

It sounds like OCD to me, I have mild OCD I think. It runs in families and my Mum has it bad. I constantly find my self repeating rituals but I don't let it take over my life, when it does you need to see your GP.

Everyone has some form of mild-moderate OCD, especially in mid-late adolescence.. yet we all live and feel alive eventually. Hakuna matata. Just concentrate on what you want to do in that time.. Write things to do, and timetable them each day..

Reply 15

Trigger

18

i was planning my mates funeral the other day in my head. Hes not dead. ive done that twice now :frown:

Reply 16

Riddy

Lirael Abhorsen

this might sound a bit weird, but i'll say it anyway. lately i've been having a lot of thoughts about death without any real reason or motivation and keep thinking every day will be my last and wonder if things are going to kill me etc. everytime i start to feel happy, i kind of feel alarmed that something bad will happen.. really strange i know.. also am quite a bad hypochondriac.. my mother thinks it is because i read too many holocaust books etc. i also keep getting scared one of my friends'll get hurt or something, and of the stability in my life being lost. do you think this is related to me going to uni soon and feeling insecure about it? sorry to burden you with my weird thought cycles :rolleyes:

Im sure this is along the lines of generalised anxiety disorder.

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/generalized_anxiety_disorder.htm
(scroll down a touch)

Its really common, I think I have agrophobia, if things dont get better see a councellor it should help a lot.

Reply 17

graveyarddreams

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Lirael Abhorsen

this might sound a bit weird, but i'll say it anyway. lately i've been having a lot of thoughts about death without any real reason or motivation and keep thinking every day will be my last and wonder if things are going to kill me etc. everytime i start to feel happy, i kind of feel alarmed that something bad will happen.. really strange i know.. also am quite a bad hypochondriac.. my mother thinks it is because i read too many holocaust books etc. i also keep getting scared one of my friends'll get hurt or something, and of the stability in my life being lost. do you think this is related to me going to uni soon and feeling insecure about it? sorry to burden you with my weird thought cycles :rolleyes:

i feel like that all the time so don't worry. I don't think i've ever (in the last few years) went through a day without thinking about death. It's ok, for you, it's sounds like it's more of a phase that you're going through, it's more likely to go away soon. Every now and then, everyone go through depressing periods of time when they start to question their life, death, purpose etc. especially when the pace of your life slows down (such as eg. during a boring holiday). Drawing from my experience, i feel like phases such as this helps me to think deeply, build up character to grow... etc, just go through what you have to go through right now and soon it will end, and you will find that you benefitted from it.

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