I can't bin a piece of paper without checking it thoroughly to see what I've written on it. I never write anything very embarrassing, it's just in case.
If there's anything remotely personal, e.g. a to do list with everyday stuff like "walk dog", "whatever exercise routine", "read whatever", "make such and such a food", "do exercise (A) in textbook", I have to destroy it completely. I burn the paper, or I run it under the tap and tear it apart and stick it together over and over until it's just a clump of mess then toilet flush it...I usually do this after crossing what was on the paper thoroughly.
It's because I worry about somebody finding the paper and reading it, just in case they find something to make fun of in it (that I hadn't considered to be that bad, or that I simply hadn't seen or remembered when I binned the paper) and it gets spread around...
obviously this is a huge waste of time, getting paranoid and having to dispose of things in this way, and it does get in the way of doing stuff that's actually useful. is it more "healthy" to just chuck used bits of paper in the bin without thinking? what do you do?
is this what you would consider a bearable paranoia problem? I've had it so long that I don't really know what effect it has on my happiness...I'm uptight all the time
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- 12-02-2010 22:18
- 12-02-2010 22:20
that's one example of the sort of paranoia I get...people finding stuff I've written
- 12-02-2010 22:24
I suggest some form of help, especially since it is getting in the way of your daily life.
It isn't normal.
Is there anything that you think may have sparked this?
- 12-02-2010 22:26
I can't hand jotters in for marking in case I've written anything in them that I'd forgotten about...
this doesn't happen anymore so much, but I used to get really uptight about handing homework in: I'd worry that my thoughts might have wandered halfway through answering a question and I might have started writing my personal thoughts/feelings...this would completely control me and occupy my mind and time until I got the homework back.