Hi, I'm 21, I live in the UK, and I am not happy with the direction my life is going and I really want to go back and get some education and change my career before it's too late. However, I already feel like I've wasted loads of time.
Everyone else I know is now off and doing what they chose to do when they were in school, and I feel like I'm having to start all over again. I really feel like I've missed out on alot, you know the student kind of life, having loads of mates and generally having a good time etc. I feel like I've not got anywhere in life since I left school 5 years ago and don't want to regret not doing things... as I know we only get one shot at life and I don't wanna have a mid-life crisis.
I don’t have many mates, I’m stuck in a relationship that I’m not happy with and it’s making me depressed, maybe because I feel as though she is all I have in my life. I do love her though, and I feel quity for dragging her down because I'm so boring. But then again, if I was go back to uni, I couldn't be with her, it just wouldn't work (it's complicated). I feel trapped and torn between things, and it’s all my fault. Anyhow...
To do what I really want to do (my dream career) it would be at least 3-4 years before I gain the skills/knowledge/qualifications to even be considered to go to Uni to do the course I want to, which means I could then be 25... is this a little too old to start going back to become a student?
Everyone else will be like 17-21 ish, and I will be like 5 years away from being 30! I know this might still sound young to some, and I know alot of people go back to uni at alot later age, but I want to still be young and 'mad' and still be in 'student mode' without being too serious about settling down and growing up too much, you know what I mean. I’m scared of growing up too soon, which is what I feel like I’ve done. I want to start again fresh and experience life!
I just want to rent a cheap place, have mates come round often, go out get drunk (responsibly), have a good time and be happy (obviously whilst still doing my studies).
But at the same time though, will it be kind of sad and silly being a person of that age (25+) and still be acting like youngster, and want to hang around with people alot younger.
Am I too late to start thinking things like this, and is anyone else in this same situation?
Help!