Why do I want bad things to happen to me?

What it says in the title really ...

I spend a lot of time imagining scenarios in which bad things are happening to me. Like if I am driving on the motorway, I imagine another car crashing into me head on and my legs being trapped or something like that. I actually enjoy thinking about it, like a fantasty/daydream, and wish it would happen.

I imagine being seriously ill in hospital, or a family member dying and sometimes dream about this as well. In the past I have deliberately hurt myself so I could go to hospital.

If somebody tells me that they are ill, or something bad has happened to them, I get this intense feeling of jealousy.

I have been like this ever since I can remember. Why?? It takes over my whole life.

See a doctor :smile:

You need something bad to actually happen to you to realise that you really don't want it.

You want people to be sympathetic of you & for you to be the centre of everyone's world.

You're narcissistic

Reply 3

Last Summer's Dream

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Hmm. Have you had many bad things happen to you before?

I had quite a hard time from the age of 13 to 16, with a lot of bad things to deal with. Then suddenly, nothing had happened for a while. I kept imagining bad things happening and almost wanting them to happen. I don't think I knew how to be myself if I didn't have a death to deal with or some major issue going on. As I got happier and more comfortable with myself, these feelings went away.

Reply 4

alexgjy

it's kind of psychological hint, really not good for your mental health. Maybe go see a doctor.

Reply 5

hannah_dru

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Steezy

You need something bad to actually happen to you to realise that you really don't want it.

You want people to be sympathetic of you & for you to be the centre of everyone's world.

This basically.

Reply 6

Anonymous #1

OP

Steezy

You need something bad to actually happen to you to realise that you really don't want it.

You want people to be sympathetic of you & for you to be the centre of everyone's world.

You're narcissistic

I actually agree ... but the thing is, I HAVE had bad things happen to me and I liked the attention. I think that is why I now crave it so much. (I have had two ear surgeries, eye surgery, broken toe and a broken wrist - none of which I delierately made happen).

Reply 7

BMWbest4U

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Well yo cant have attention all your life ... otherwise your life would be in constant chaoes trying to get that attention ...

the fact your asking shows you hav some touch with reality ... see a doctor before it gets worse ...and remember doctors can only work on what you tell them so eb honest

Reply 8

Steezy

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OP - how pld are you? Without sounding too harsh, it sounds like immaturity which you will grow out of.

Going to a doctor will only help in that you'll feel you are getting attention. I don't think they'll be able to help, you just need to grow up a bit

Reply 9

Anonymous #1

OP

Steezy

OP - how pld are you? Without sounding too harsh, it sounds like immaturity which you will grow out of.

Going to a doctor will only help in that you'll feel you are getting attention. I don't think they'll be able to help, you just need to grow up a bit

I'm 18 and already have keyworkers who visit me because of other mental problems. But I don't know if I should tell them about this or not? Like you said, it sounds really immature and I don't want to bring it up if it is something that will pass. Or they will think is silly.

Reply 10

Steezy

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Anonymous

I actually agree ... but the thing is, I HAVE had bad things happen to me and I liked the attention. I think that is why I now crave it so much. (I have had two ear surgeries, eye surgery, broken toe and a broken wrist - none of which I delierately made happen).

These are all relatively small things that were probably out weighed by the attention you received.

If something truly life changing happened to you. Something that turned your world upside down, believe me - that would be the last bad thing you want to happen to you.

Reply 11

Steezy

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Anonymous

I'm 18 and already have keyworkers who visit me because of other mental problems. But I don't know if I should tell them about this or not? Like you said, it sounds really immature and I don't want to bring it up if it is something that will pass. Or they will think is silly.

If you have other health problems & people that are around you willing to listen, I'd definitely bring it up with them.

I've read one paragraph and made a judgement. I know nothing about your life. You should definitely bring it up with the keyworkers.

Reply 12

Broderss

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You want people's attention and you think the best way to get this is by getting sympathy.

You are an attention whore. Grow up.

Reply 13

polaroid13

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Broderss

You want people's attention and you think the best way to get this is by getting sympathy.

You are an attention whore. Grow up.

That's what I think.
It seriously can't be a mental issue; because otherwise I would also need to get myself down the doctor's.
I know I just crave attention; I don't actually physically do anything about it like the OP i.e. deliberately hurting myself and I don't get jealous when it happens to others.
Bad times.

Reply 14

Broderss

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polaroid13

That's what I think.
It seriously can't be a mental issue; because otherwise I would also need to get myself down the doctor's.
I know I just crave attention; I don't actually physically do anything about it like the OP i.e. deliberately hurting myself and I don't get jealous when it happens to others.
Bad times.

Why don't you try getting a puppy or do a hobby where you get the attention you want (ie volunteer work for old people or disabled kids??).