Well actually it is 69lbs exactly but I may as well round it up. To make matters worse I’m really short so just look like a fat ball rolling around. It’s disgusting and to be honest I can’t even look at myself without feeling sick. In my head I’m slim and always have been but then I realise that actually I’m a fatty.
I eat a lot of junk food and do no exercise at all. In fact I barely move all day so I know it’s my fault I look like this. I'm just beyond lazy!
On an average day I’ll have;
Breakfast - 2 toasts with tonnes of margarine + 3 fish fingers or a fried egg or a waffle + 1 tea.
Lunch – nothing
Dinner – 2 toasts, a baked fish + tea or a takeout – burger and chips (I have this once every two weeks or so but had been having it every week before)
Snacks – loads of junk food like 4-5 biscuits, chocolate most days or cake and loads of high calorie fruit juices.
Sometime I ate much more then that, sometimes a lot less.
Today I ate; 2 wholemeal toasts and margarine both sides, 1 baked fish and tomato sauce, 1 chicken baguette, 1 bowl rice pudding and slice of cake. I also had 3 glasses of fruit juice and 2 teas.
I have barely any clothes that fit me and really don’t feel like buying them in such huge sizes
I lose weight every year and then I re-gain it every year. I have been doing this for about 6 years now but I've been dieting for longer then that. I have tried so many times to lose it but every single time I mess up. I know I try losing it in the most idiotic way but I can’t help but do that. I start off eating okay but then within a few weeks I’m starving myself and exercising to the point I can barely walk. After a while I give up and gain weight. This year I’ve gained too much weight though! Never been this fat ever. Usually after a few months of gaining weight I'm back to eating good again but this year I seem to have just given up
So of course it is about time I did something about it again. My mum
keeps hinting at me (not so subtly) that I ought to lose the rolls

Like ‘me and you should go on walks, get some good exercise’ and ‘you never eat fruit, it’s good for you. It’ll make you get better’. She acts as if I’m ill but I know what she means and I know she’s looking out for me bless her
The thing is I’ve lost and gained weight so often that now I feel like I want to do it the right way and not let myself mess up again. I don’t know how to cook at all so I live pretty much on toast and junky fatty food. I want to plan it out properly and eat well but not over-do it this time hopefully.