Pensive thoughts during a night out - day after

Like last night I went out drinking, and from periods in the night to now I feel very pensive about life. I think I go through spells in the night where I have moments with certain people, certain situations where I feel like I want to either capture the moment, or I feel like I'm missing out.

Also I've just learned I'm very close to failing Uni. I've failed 2 modules already and I can only fail 2 more modules or else re-take year or drop out - i'd do the latter. Unfortunately I've got myself into a rut because I've been unhappy at Uni, and in doing so have let my work slip. Basically it's make or break, since having the meeting about my situation it really hit home that I haven't kept on track. I kind of feel like it's a case of too little too late, and this was on my mind through the night as well which I guess made me want to capture the moment(s) because a part of me feels like I won't be here next year. I feel like I may just have ruined my life kind of.

And now I wake up in the morning, can't sleep, it's good weather, I have no lectures and being hungover I simply am going to be unproductive. This is when everything hits home ... I feel full of regret, sadness, frustration not just on the course aspect but just like everything. I don't want to be on my own right now, I feel like I have to be around people. I just send my mood to rock bottom else. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just think so deeply about life. I just feel like the end of the world is upon me. And I need the attention of people, and the feeling of love to feel like, things aren't that bad. I'm sat here desperate. I don't know, I'm just lost in life. I don't know what to do right now, I want to feel like there is hope.

Reply 1

iainthegreat

I have Penisive thoughts on a night out. Genreal thoughts, ponderings if you will, about penises and penis related problems.

Reply 2

Endz90

right

Reply 3

StarryEyed91

iainthegreat

I have Penisive thoughts on a night out. Genreal thoughts, ponderings if you will, about penises and penis related problems.

LOL

On a night out, I'm usually too drunk to think, let alone think deeply :dontknow:

Reply 4

of_montreal

everyone thinks too deeply on a night out at some point. Just don't be a chode and bang on your mates about it every time you go out. As for work, just try harder, its all you can do!

Reply 5

oneandatwo

i completely know what you're feeling like. socially uni hasnt been so great for me either, i have like one friend on my course and some other randoms i know from halls. at least youve had nights out, ive been out rarely this year as my uni doesnt really organise many social events so instead of having these pensive thoughts when im out ive just been having them in my room alone at night. great. i think the best thing to do is just try and be active. apply for some work experience, volunteer work, part time jobs. the more busy you are the less time these pensive thoughts will reappear. sometimes its nice to think deeply about life and whatnot but in your situation, as with mine, it seems to be having a negative effect, only leading to unproductivity etc.