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    Here I am.

    The new year has come. For me, it was a time to reflect and think on the past.

    I am a young man. I am 18. I am myself. I am a student. I am a son, and a brother. I am a family guy. I go to a great college. The only thing that seems to lack is my personal life.

    I am maybe bi-curious. I have been in love with women. I have always been attracted to them. I spent almost a year going through some sexuality confusion. I suffered in silence. Alone. I did not dare talk to anyone. I didn't want to be recruited into a GSA or be picked up by a horny gay guy.

    Instead, I continued to be me. Chilling with my boys. Hanging out. Playing games. Checking out girls. I did a lot of soul-searching and exploring. A lot of it about women. and men. The roles of men and women today. Mysogyny (hatred or oppression of females), Misandry (hatred or oppression of males), Feminism, Bisexuality, Homosexuality and Heterosexuality. Teen Dating. Teen Violence.
    Sexual Development. Rape (believe it or not, it happens to males and females, and both males and females can be the perpetrators of this violent crime).

    I tried to find myself.

    I tested myself. I was strongly attracted to women, with a slight curiosity about my own gender.

    I fell into porn. Out of curiosity (Anal, Lesbian, Bisexual, Strap Ons, Shemales, BBW, Incest, Erotic Stories).

    It was all....entertaining but not much help. I discovered that all sexual activity was arousing regardless of one's orientation. How ? Easy.

    I talked to some people. I was vague and did not let people know my business. The Internet and the Library became my best friends.

    I discovered authors like Alex Sanchez. He is the guy who wrote Rainbow Boys, a book about 3 not so straight kids. Nelson (stereotypical drama queen), Kyle (closeted gay swimmer) and Jason (budding bisexual jock with a steady girlfriend).

    The Book helped. But i could not really relate. These kids were white. No one knew what it was like to be black and bisexual or whatever.

    I discovered E. Lynn Harris.

    I read : Invisible Life (Romance about black lawyer
    Raymond, his beloved girlfriends and his string of gay relationships).

    The character I most identified with was Basil Henderson. He was black, he was manly. He was bisexual but kept it a secret. He liked women a lot. He had lots of sex. He was a Player. He was ruthless and outright nasty but sympathetic sometimes.

    E. Lynn Harris described two bisexual black men that I could understand. They were not girly. They led straight lives. They were nothing like the cast of Queer Eye for the Straight Guy or WILL & GRACE.

    They were realistic.

    After reading about people like that, I was basically okay with bisexuality. Oh, the being a virgin part was scary. I still hate it. It embarasses me.

    I counted the number of girls I had strong feelings for at various times in my life. Sexual and emotional feelings.

    Cassandra N. Melanie D. Alison M. Saindya B. Nicole B. Patricia T. Loren X. And just about every female with a big booty at the local Mall.

    Number of guys I felt something for : Andrew. Cool. Good-looking. Masculine. Good with the ladies. Liked to swear. He is the cousin of Saindya, the first girl I ever fell in love with. I was all crazy about Saindya.
    I was 13 at the time. I realized I liked Andrew a few weeks ago. I am 18 now. lol. (5 years to realize i liked him).

    I would have sex with a man but if i were to ever cross the line, it would be with Andrew. I avoid men who act like women. They scare the hell out of me.


    So this is my life.

    I had adjusted to the fact that I was mostly straight, with a slight curiosity. I was not bisexual but you could place me under straight but curious, though no one would ever guess it.

    I'm a durag-wearing, phat pharm-sporting, Nikes-clad, Rolex-snapping kind of Brotha. I watch BET, ESPN and the tv shows like ANGEL, Charmed, The Parkers, PUNKED, Scare Tactics, Stargate SG 1,
    MTV's Spiderman and Yu gi Oh.

    I am really careful about deleting my tracks on the net, how i act around people and how i treat the females. I realize that being bi hasn't made me any better with the ladies. rejection still stung. there were no guarantees of success.


    Something really surprised me today.

    I went to the Movies to see Lord of the Rings part 3.
    On the way home, guess who i saw ? Melanie D.
    A hot chick i had a crush on in 10th Grade. I had butterflies in my stomach. I was nervous.

    Being this affected by a chick startled me. I was bi, right ? Most bi guys were super cool and ultra good with the ladies. The perks of only putting up with the woman's , um, silly things only half the time. How can a bi guy not be confident ? Well, I sure as hell was not.

    I left home confidently with a new haircut, cool clothes and "Bi and Proud" in my thoughts. I loved getting looked at by the ladies and the men.
    Once I saw Melanie, I was a schoolboy again. What did it mean ?

    Was I normal ? wow.

    I dont know. Maybe it was the shock of seeing her in the 8 months since we graduated high school ?
    yeah, whatever.


    My new year's resolution is to lose weight and my virginity, not necessarily in that order.

    I feel like an embarassment to nature.

    Gay guys get plenty of sex. Straight men get plenty of sex. As a bisexual, I was supposedly getting the best of both worlds ? Wrong ! I still play husband to my fist, if you know what i mean and can't get a certain pornstar named Kym Wilde
    out of my head. Or a guy named Tom Moore aka ****** Dundee. sheesh !!!!!!

    Bi for Now.

    Get it, Bi for Now ? lol. No ? Whatever. See ya.
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    (Original post by Wolfman117)
    Ok.


    Here I am.

    The new year has come. For me, it was a time to reflect and think on the past.

    I am a young man. I am 18. I am myself. I am a student. I am a son, and a brother. I am a family guy. I go to a great college. The only thing that seems to lack is my personal life.

    I am maybe bi-curious. I have been in love with women. I have always been attracted to them. I spent almost a year going through some sexuality confusion. I suffered in silence. Alone. I did not dare talk to anyone. I didn't want to be recruited into a GSA or be picked up by a horny gay guy.

    Instead, I continued to be me. Chilling with my boys. Hanging out. Playing games. Checking out girls. I did a lot of soul-searching and exploring. A lot of it about women. and men. The roles of men and women today. Mysogyny (hatred or oppression of females), Misandry (hatred or oppression of males), Feminism, Bisexuality, Homosexuality and Heterosexuality. Teen Dating. Teen Violence.
    Sexual Development. Rape (believe it or not, it happens to males and females, and both males and females can be the perpetrators of this violent crime).

    I tried to find myself.

    I tested myself. I was strongly attracted to women, with a slight curiosity about my own gender.

    I fell into porn. Out of curiosity (Anal, Lesbian, Bisexual, Strap Ons, Shemales, BBW, Incest, Erotic Stories).

    It was all....entertaining but not much help. I discovered that all sexual activity was arousing regardless of one's orientation. How ? Easy.

    I talked to some people. I was vague and did not let people know my business. The Internet and the Library became my best friends.

    I discovered authors like Alex Sanchez. He is the guy who wrote Rainbow Boys, a book about 3 not so straight kids. Nelson (stereotypical drama queen), Kyle (closeted gay swimmer) and Jason (budding bisexual jock with a steady girlfriend).

    The Book helped. But i could not really relate. These kids were white. No one knew what it was like to be black and bisexual or whatever.

    I discovered E. Lynn Harris.

    I read : Invisible Life (Romance about black lawyer
    Raymond, his beloved girlfriends and his string of gay relationships).

    The character I most identified with was Basil Henderson. He was black, he was manly. He was bisexual but kept it a secret. He liked women a lot. He had lots of sex. He was a Player. He was ruthless and outright nasty but sympathetic sometimes.

    E. Lynn Harris described two bisexual black men that I could understand. They were not girly. They led straight lives. They were nothing like the cast of Queer Eye for the Straight Guy or WILL & GRACE.

    They were realistic.

    After reading about people like that, I was basically okay with bisexuality. Oh, the being a virgin part was scary. I still hate it. It embarasses me.

    I counted the number of girls I had strong feelings for at various times in my life. Sexual and emotional feelings.

    Cassandra N. Melanie D. Alison M. Saindya B. Nicole B. Patricia T. Loren X. And just about every female with a big booty at the local Mall.

    Number of guys I felt something for : Andrew. Cool. Good-looking. Masculine. Good with the ladies. Liked to swear. He is the cousin of Saindya, the first girl I ever fell in love with. I was all crazy about Saindya.
    I was 13 at the time. I realized I liked Andrew a few weeks ago. I am 18 now. lol. (5 years to realize i liked him).

    I would have sex with a man but if i were to ever cross the line, it would be with Andrew. I avoid men who act like women. They scare the hell out of me.


    So this is my life.

    I had adjusted to the fact that I was mostly straight, with a slight curiosity. I was not bisexual but you could place me under straight but curious, though no one would ever guess it.

    I'm a durag-wearing, phat pharm-sporting, Nikes-clad, Rolex-snapping kind of Brotha. I watch BET, ESPN and the tv shows like ANGEL, Charmed, The Parkers, PUNKED, Scare Tactics, Stargate SG 1,
    MTV's Spiderman and Yu gi Oh.

    I am really careful about deleting my tracks on the net, how i act around people and how i treat the females. I realize that being bi hasn't made me any better with the ladies. rejection still stung. there were no guarantees of success.


    Something really surprised me today.

    I went to the Movies to see Lord of the Rings part 3.
    On the way home, guess who i saw ? Melanie D.
    A hot chick i had a crush on in 10th Grade. I had butterflies in my stomach. I was nervous.

    Being this affected by a chick startled me. I was bi, right ? Most bi guys were super cool and ultra good with the ladies. The perks of only putting up with the woman's , um, silly things only half the time. How can a bi guy not be confident ? Well, I sure as hell was not.

    I left home confidently with a new haircut, cool clothes and "Bi and Proud" in my thoughts. I loved getting looked at by the ladies and the men.
    Once I saw Melanie, I was a schoolboy again. What did it mean ?

    Was I normal ? wow.

    I dont know. Maybe it was the shock of seeing her in the 8 months since we graduated high school ?
    yeah, whatever.


    My new year's resolution is to lose weight and my virginity, not necessarily in that order.

    I feel like an embarassment to nature.

    Gay guys get plenty of sex. Straight men get plenty of sex. As a bisexual, I was supposedly getting the best of both worlds ? Wrong ! I still play husband to my fist, if you know what i mean and can't get a certain pornstar named Kym Wilde
    out of my head. Or a guy named Tom Moore aka ****** Dundee. sheesh !!!!!!

    Bi for Now.

    Get it, Bi for Now ? lol. No ? Whatever. See ya.
    LOL...i canNOT believe you! you actually expect people to believe this stuff...? alls i can say is: you need a career is soap operas!
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    (Original post by curryADD)
    LOL...i canNOT believe you! you actually expect people to believe this stuff...? alls i can say is: you need a career is soap operas!
    i believe it. wats not 2 believe? i have a good friend who is bi. she is just as confused as u. at the moment she is more straight than bi tho. i dont believe sexuality is something we have control over. i think its out of our hands - no matter wat ppl say. i am straight and have had many many crushes on guys - over a hundred crushes on guys yet ive had like 2 crushes on girls. but my feelings for guys have always been WAAAAAAY stronger than those slight feelings for those girls at the time. so i know im straight. ppl get confused sometimes. but i dont think our sexual orientation is something we have control over.
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    (Original post by sweet_gal)
    i believe it. wats not 2 believe?
    The poster is notorious for these soap opera style postings.

    Take a look at his threads: http://www.uk-learning.net/search.php?searchid=39838

    I wouldn't waste your time taking what he says as true.
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    (Original post by sweet_gal)
    i have a good friend who is bi. she is just as confused as u. at the moment she is more straight than bi tho. i .
    Well there you have it ladies and gentlement, you can be kinda straight and kinda bisexual all at the same time!!!!!


    Wolfman - you deserve and oscar!
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    Don't feed the troll!!!
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    Lolololol!!! Love the pun at the end. :rolleyes:
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    (Original post by Wolfman117)
    I fell into porn.
    Ouch.


    (Original post by Wolfman117)
    I'm a durag-wearing, phat pharm-sporting, Nikes-clad, Rolex-snapping kind of Brotha.
    What a guy!! :rolleyes: Oh, the entertainment. I wish Whitey was here, sure he'd add his two pence!
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    (Original post by serendipity)
    Ouch.



    What a guy!! :rolleyes: Oh, the entertainment. I wish Whitey was here, sure he'd add his two pence!
    laughs so hard***i nearly fall out of my chair!
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    LOL! That is a quality story my friend. Congrats.
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    (Original post by Chris_)
    LOL! That is a quality story my friend. Congrats.
    exactly what i was thinking!
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    (Original post by Wolfman117)
    Ok.


    Here I am.

    The new year has come. For me, it was a time to reflect and think on the past.

    I am a young man. I am 18. I am myself. I am a student. I am a son, and a brother. I am a family guy. I go to a great college. The only thing that seems to lack is my personal life.

    I am maybe bi-curious. I have been in love with women. I have always been attracted to them. I spent almost a year going through some sexuality confusion. I suffered in silence. Alone. I did not dare talk to anyone. I didn't want to be recruited into a GSA or be picked up by a horny gay guy.

    Instead, I continued to be me. Chilling with my boys. Hanging out. Playing games. Checking out girls. I did a lot of soul-searching and exploring. A lot of it about women. and men. The roles of men and women today. Mysogyny (hatred or oppression of females), Misandry (hatred or oppression of males), Feminism, Bisexuality, Homosexuality and Heterosexuality. Teen Dating. Teen Violence.
    Sexual Development. Rape (believe it or not, it happens to males and females, and both males and females can be the perpetrators of this violent crime).

    I tried to find myself.

    I tested myself. I was strongly attracted to women, with a slight curiosity about my own gender.

    I fell into porn. Out of curiosity (Anal, Lesbian, Bisexual, Strap Ons, Shemales, BBW, Incest, Erotic Stories).

    It was all....entertaining but not much help. I discovered that all sexual activity was arousing regardless of one's orientation. How ? Easy.

    I talked to some people. I was vague and did not let people know my business. The Internet and the Library became my best friends.

    I discovered authors like Alex Sanchez. He is the guy who wrote Rainbow Boys, a book about 3 not so straight kids. Nelson (stereotypical drama queen), Kyle (closeted gay swimmer) and Jason (budding bisexual jock with a steady girlfriend).

    The Book helped. But i could not really relate. These kids were white. No one knew what it was like to be black and bisexual or whatever.

    I discovered E. Lynn Harris.

    I read : Invisible Life (Romance about black lawyer
    Raymond, his beloved girlfriends and his string of gay relationships).

    The character I most identified with was Basil Henderson. He was black, he was manly. He was bisexual but kept it a secret. He liked women a lot. He had lots of sex. He was a Player. He was ruthless and outright nasty but sympathetic sometimes.

    E. Lynn Harris described two bisexual black men that I could understand. They were not girly. They led straight lives. They were nothing like the cast of Queer Eye for the Straight Guy or WILL & GRACE.

    They were realistic.

    After reading about people like that, I was basically okay with bisexuality. Oh, the being a virgin part was scary. I still hate it. It embarasses me.

    I counted the number of girls I had strong feelings for at various times in my life. Sexual and emotional feelings.

    Cassandra N. Melanie D. Alison M. Saindya B. Nicole B. Patricia T. Loren X. And just about every female with a big booty at the local Mall.

    Number of guys I felt something for : Andrew. Cool. Good-looking. Masculine. Good with the ladies. Liked to swear. He is the cousin of Saindya, the first girl I ever fell in love with. I was all crazy about Saindya.
    I was 13 at the time. I realized I liked Andrew a few weeks ago. I am 18 now. lol. (5 years to realize i liked him).

    I would have sex with a man but if i were to ever cross the line, it would be with Andrew. I avoid men who act like women. They scare the hell out of me.


    So this is my life.

    I had adjusted to the fact that I was mostly straight, with a slight curiosity. I was not bisexual but you could place me under straight but curious, though no one would ever guess it.

    I'm a durag-wearing, phat pharm-sporting, Nikes-clad, Rolex-snapping kind of Brotha. I watch BET, ESPN and the tv shows like ANGEL, Charmed, The Parkers, PUNKED, Scare Tactics, Stargate SG 1,
    MTV's Spiderman and Yu gi Oh.

    I am really careful about deleting my tracks on the net, how i act around people and how i treat the females. I realize that being bi hasn't made me any better with the ladies. rejection still stung. there were no guarantees of success.


    Something really surprised me today.

    I went to the Movies to see Lord of the Rings part 3.
    On the way home, guess who i saw ? Melanie D.
    A hot chick i had a crush on in 10th Grade. I had butterflies in my stomach. I was nervous.

    Being this affected by a chick startled me. I was bi, right ? Most bi guys were super cool and ultra good with the ladies. The perks of only putting up with the woman's , um, silly things only half the time. How can a bi guy not be confident ? Well, I sure as hell was not.

    I left home confidently with a new haircut, cool clothes and "Bi and Proud" in my thoughts. I loved getting looked at by the ladies and the men.
    Once I saw Melanie, I was a schoolboy again. What did it mean ?

    Was I normal ? wow.

    I dont know. Maybe it was the shock of seeing her in the 8 months since we graduated high school ?
    yeah, whatever.


    My new year's resolution is to lose weight and my virginity, not necessarily in that order.

    I feel like an embarassment to nature.

    Gay guys get plenty of sex. Straight men get plenty of sex. As a bisexual, I was supposedly getting the best of both worlds ? Wrong ! I still play husband to my fist, if you know what i mean and can't get a certain pornstar named Kym Wilde
    out of my head. Or a guy named Tom Moore aka ****** Dundee. sheesh !!!!!!

    Bi for Now.

    Get it, Bi for Now ? lol. No ? Whatever. See ya.
    Woh. Did ayone read all that? Seriously.
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    (Original post by ilovecjs)
    Woh. Did ayone read all that? Seriously.
    no! but they are always the same..... and the title tells you all you need to know, seriously!
 
 
 
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