Anyone else? Watch
I don't know why or what causes it but it lasts for days, sometimes even weeks, and there is nothing I can do to get out the funk. I've tried going out with friends/family, and I have an awesome time while I'm with them, but then as soon as we've all gone our seperate ways, I feel down all over again and I've tried listening to happy, up-beat music but that doesn't help either and I don't know what else to do?
I don't consider myself depressed because I've had friends who have been diagnosed with depression and have seen how they've felt etc. And I don't consider myself to have any problems compared to theirs!
But when I am low, I feel so upset that I just cry and cry for hours on end. Sometimes I feel really angry and want to hit/break something. But then everything goes alright again and I feel alright. Until it happends again
I've never told anyone else about this because I'm not really one to express how I'm feeling (hence why I'm writting on here) and when people ask me if I'm ok I just shrug it off with "I'm tired" or "it's been a long day that's all" or something along those lines. But now I don't think they believe me when I say it anymore.
I don't really expect a reply but I was just wondering if anyone felt like this at times? Is it normal? My whole life just seems like cycles of highs and lows.
P.S. Sorry about the mini-essay that you might waste 3 minutes of your life reading x.
****** times in my life atm, and I think that affects me even when I don't think about it.
An example: Went out to a nightclub, was having an okay time, and all of a sudden wham, felt like ****. Was not in the mood to speak/dance/socialise at all. So I literatly sat on my own the whole night and cried when I got home. Sounds so pathetic I know.
But yeah I seem to have really bad mood swings, I cry/get really irratable at least every couple of days xx