I'm all geared up for leaving next week, and I feel mostly fine about it...
I have a sister, who's 11, and when she found out I was leaving, she cried for hours and wouldn't talk to me. Last week, I left her for a couple of days to go stay with a friend, and she was constantly texting me, ringing me, asking me to come home. She's getting worse the closer I am to leaving. I asked her if she wanted to help me pack.. "No, because if I don't help, you might not leave". Now don't get me wrong, I sort of expected this off her, I didn't ever expect her to be happy that I'm moving away from her. But now I feel bad. I feel like I shouldn't be leaving her, because she's getting so upset about it. I don't mind leaving my mum and dad, they're being fine about everything and.. Yeah..
But then theres my best friend too. We talked about my sister last night, and how hard its gonna be leaving her. And then when I got in, she sent me a message. "sometimes i wish you were a dumbass cause then you wouldnt be going off to get a better life, you'd be stuck here with the rest of us idiots".
I'm not looking forward to next friday at all. It's the last time I'll see both of them, for a while, and i'm scared of how I'm gonna feel about it all. I know I'm doing the right thing, and I know neither of them are trying to hold me back, and they want me to go and have fun.. But..
I spose I just wanted somewhere to write all this. I know a lot of people are gonna be feeling similar things to this, is anyone else finding it so difficult? The thought of saying goodbye?