driving me crazy

thought i'll give it till wed or thurs. I'll text her after i get my fone and then prob get her a small bouquet and meet her later on. Dunno...feels weird when u dont really know if she likes u or if she's trying to cut u off. Feels awful!!!

well i was out at this party last night. And i met another girl who i'd met 2 days ago and she introduced me to her flat mates and i got dancing wih one of 'em. i'd had a couple of drinks and wasnt drunk. I danced with her before we found oursleves in a quiet corner on the dance floor. We started kissing then and it went on and on for like 1/2 hr. She was soooo lovely. Then i asked her if she wants to like sit down and said yeah. so we found another place and there was just a single couch and i sat and made her sit on my lap. We started talking and i found out that she's wonderful and she has such a sexy laugh. Then we kissed again and again. And then she asked me back to her room on one condition that i leave when she asks me too. We went back to her place and had such an awesome time. We had a romantic time but both of us knew that we didnt want to take it too fast. And then me and my big fat mouth....i asked her out!!!!!!!!!!!!! And she said that she'll think abt it and all that and she wont have time for me. I said 5 mins a day...we'll always work something out. And i knew that she liked me a lot too...i could see it in her eyes. She said she'll think about it and she said yeah we'll try and do something abt it. She said she doesnt wanna hurt me and i said how wud u know what we cud have been if u dont even wanna give us a try. And she said she'll think abt it. Then we made out for some more time. It was 2 am and her flatmates came back. And then she said that i should get going and i said ok and got her number. Then i left and her flatmates were giggling all over when they saw me coming outta her flat. Then i went back to my flat. Slept off and woke up and i just couldnt stop thinking of her. It was agony. She was away at a meet so couldnt contact her. Then at around 5 pm i called and she picked up and said she came back early. She said she was sick and i said oh no i'll come by and see u. And she said no its ook...i dont think we should see each other. I WAS STUNNED!!!! Didnt know what to say...i was like pls can i come over and we'll talk abt it. Gimme one chance to talk abt us. She said she's made up her mind and she aint changing it no matter what. And then she said so...we'll be friends ( really sucks when thats said!!!! ). I was so stunned that i felt like a bloody fool. I mean c'mon!!!!!!!! I wasnt the one who initiated all this. Feel like ****! So she says...so i'll see ya prob later sometime. I said ok. And she said all the best for ur course....(it was like ok ...dont ever wanna talk to u again!). She said she was drunk last night but i bloody know she was in her senses!!!! And then i put the fone down saying yeah take care. Bbye. And it was as if the sledgehammer had fallen on me. I might bump in to her tomo....any ideas on what i shud do??? I just cant stop thinking abt her.