Feeling really awful about facing next year of uni...

I posted on here a couple of weeks ago when one of my closest friends from uni died...it's been a really tough time, and going to the funeral and us all being together, with him being so evidently missing, was a horrible feeling

He was a really talented guy, and we're going to get some of his stuff published - he was really down to earth though, he never believed in himself much! But the point is, a lot of people are really looking forward to getting back into uni and I can't really share their excitement...I've been trying to, but I just miss him so much already.

There are people I'm going to be in a class with next year...and they didn't really seem to bother much with the work last year in general - a few even had a really bad attitude towards the tutor. In contrast, my friend really put his all into everything we did. Of course there are great people there too, but I think if those few act this way this year, it would anger me even more because of what's happened. People like that getting to continue when he can't. I just find it hard to accept all of it...we'd just been talking about our new classes and I can't believe it's all over for him.

I've been trying to be positive about getting on with things myself, but I feel like I should be moving forward with him. I'm worried about how I'm going to handle things once I'm back very soon...

First of all, i'm sorry to hear about your lose. It's never easy to lose someone your close to.

This won't help you much, but maybe you should think about how your friend would have wanted you to carry on and make a career for yourself without him there. Think about the good times you had with him and never forget him.

I'm interested to find out what he died of? but if you do not wish to answer i understand.

Have you thought about getting some uni counselling, so that you have some kinda outlet for your grief?

I think it may help to confide in those in the same position as you, i.e. those friends that knew and liked him too. You'll get through it together

how did he die? How old was he?

Uh, I don't want to say exactly in case someone recognises it's me, but it was a really tragic accident.

The thing is I have been thinking all these things...and I do manage to stay positive about it for a while. But then it just feels like everything is crashing down again, because let's face it, the reality is awful.

I'm so sorry, it's never nice when these things happen.

Other people in the thread suggested talking to uni support, friends etc have you tried this? They maybe able to help you through this tough time.

If you really can't face them, how about keeping a diary of your feelings? Or a book of good memories of your friend that you can look at when you feel down? The diary may help you let off some steam in a private manor (it's what i do and it really helps, you never have to show it to anyone, it's just between you and the paper).

If you ever want to talk your welcome to pm me and i'll never ever judge or give out your username to anyone.