GOGSoc goes forth

In other news, official job rejection letter from my interview last week. It took a while to get a response so I knew deep down I'd been rejected, but getting it in writing makes it so true.

So quiet in Cambridge tonight

Had no idea you were at Cam

I'm not. I'm interviewing!

Being interviewed, you mean?

At least you got a letter. The NHS don't bother

Damn damn damn, going to the theatre has given the 'I should have done THAT as my PhD proposal' LOL. Nahh couldn't face going back to academia *shudder*.

Ugh, I hate Valentine's Day. It's not even remotely romantic.

Was it the 900 word one?

Yeh I think I'm the same. I was single until I was 21, and only began to get fidgety about that at 20. Since being with my boyfriend though, being without him is absolutely rubbish presumably because I know what I'm missing and have that point of comparison. If I wasn't connected to anybody I wouldn't mind being alone. But when you are connected its much nicer to be together than apart. Especially as its quite easy to be solitary while in another person's company. My boyfriend and I are both quite introverted so often spend time reading or listening to music in the same location without speaking.

I know exactly what you mean, and you're right - having the point of comparison does make a big difference. Before we got together, I'd had one relationship worthy of the name, and that had been years ago in a different part of the country. I was single and content, and was completely happy being alone. I'd always find plenty to do to fill my time as well.

Now I have no idea how to fill the time if he's away - our lives are kind of structured around each other now. I can't even be arsed to cook for myself, as we always cook together. And like you, we both like and need solitude, because we both write for a living, but the solitude of being both inside our studies looking forward to breaking for lunch together or going for a walk later or whatever, is different from the solitude of me being here and him being all the way across an ocean.

Bah, I sound pathetic!

Yeah, I gave a 40 this week and now feel like a complete bitch. But it gets wearing when this particular student just won't improve. He has heard me give two seminars on how important it is to read and reference secondary material in essays, and he persists in giving me essays that don't even reference the book the question is about, let alone anything else. I feel like shaking him.

My girlfriend visits me every couple weeks since she lives in Yorkshire, but I am left on my own for long stretches at times so I definitely sympathise with how you are feeling at the moment. She visited over the weekend and we went to go see Black Swan, which was wonderful; I liked it far, far more than she did! Most have been the Dostoevskian undertones.