Im very unaffectionate, Others around me have noticed I show very little emotion and I have began to notice this myself. I never let anyone in and I feel I do not love anyone.
I have had a very bad year and everyone has let me down, So in order to control something in my life, I began to make myself sick after meals, this was around august.
Now I feel sick automatically after every meal and I have no control over it, But i do not binge eat, So I'm not bulimic. I don't want help for this because i feel i do not deserve it.
I promise you this is genuine even though i understand that this may come across as troll-like to some.
Please help me, I dont know what to do and I dont trust anyone enough to talk to them in real life.
... and the ones that won't