For the past 6 weeks or so, i've suffered from near constant anxiety which has taken over my life. I've lost more than a stone through not eating, wake up at around 5am everyday because my anxiety doesn't stop when i sleep, and it makes me constantly on edge because i never know how bad i'm going to be from minute to minute let alone day to day.
I don't know what my specific trigger is, this summer i was in hospital for 2 weeks which i found difficult, and i suffered from panic attacks whilst i was there. My cousin also committed suicide and he was only 27, which i found very hard. My boyfriend lives in Sheffield and us being apart has affected me a lot, but i don't think any of these are enough to make me feel as bad as i do.
Its come to the point where i'm considering leaving university. I've told them about my problems and they've been very supportive. I don't want to leave as i worked hard to get here and i doubt i'd feel better at home because i was still feeling like this there, but if i don't get better soon i will not be able to cope with the volume of work.
Anyway my point is/was, my psychiatrist has arranged for me to have CBT starting tomorrow. I'm open to anything which may help and at the moment i'd rather try this than resort to medication because i used to be on antidepressants and they caused a lot of problems. I have also been prescribed Valium for acute situations but i very rarely take them because they are habit forming.
God i'm waffling. ANYWAY. Has anyone ever had CBT for anxiety/depression? Or has anyone suffered from Generalised Anxiety Disorder or something similar? I feel like such a freak especially as i can't explain to people what exactly it is that is upsetting me.
Thanks for reading.