I'm in a bit of crisis mode at the minute where everything seems to be falling around me.
I've had a spate of being on medication for depression, I'm now off. I am a binge drinker, I know I have a problem, because I can't open a bottle of wine without drinking the bottle. I'm not an alcoholic because I don't crave drink and can go for weeks without any but when I drink, boy do I drink. I've been with my boyfriend about 18 months, but in my head I've written off the relationship as we've been rowing so much and barely see each other, but I don't feel like I can dump him before xmas and I don't want the spectacle of pain and drama right now. We're supposed to be going on a mini break next week and I really don't want to go, I don't feel like I can put on a brave face and pretend everything is ok. I combine an intensive degree with working 20-25 hours a week, and I'm struggling to cope.
I'm also part of a uni society, and yesterday we had a social. As per title I drank 3 bottles of wine and was absolutely ****ing raving, telling anyone who'd listen about my problems with my boyfriend and how I like this other lad. I fell over and accidently rang the doorbell of a neighbours rather than the person's intented at 11pm and this girl got pissed off when I tried to use her laptop to check facebook. My housemate said that I pissed people off and I will stop getting invited out, as everyone thought I was pathetic. I drunkenly turned up at the house of the guy I like and though he was really nice and let me stay this morning I just felt like such a ****, the way he looked at me cut through me.
I feel pathetic, I feel like such a massive loser and an absolutely crap person and I feel weak. I just want to run away.
Made a prat of myself, drank 3 bottles of wine, feel alone... Watch
- Thread Starter
- 13-12-2010 13:51
- 13-12-2010 13:53
3 bottles of wine? Sorry George Best.
- 13-12-2010 13:57
Most people have this experience at some point in their life.
Just learn from it and move on. No one will remember.
- 13-12-2010 14:00
We all have bad nights.
However you do need to deal with the drinking. Like, seriously.