I don't know what to do, i know it is harsh dragging my boyfriend along like this but my feelings towards girls are getting stronger. I have been with my boyfriend for 2 years and he wants to move in with me in the next 6 months, but that would mine signing a contract which means i have to live with him for a year and that's a big commitment whether i was in this predicament or not. We are both 20 and I have just started university and i feel like i want to go out there and discover my sexuality. I love my boyfriend but we are starting to argue more and I am not attracted to any males at all. Sex with him isn't bad but it isn't great. Also I don't know if i could come out as gay. My family would disown me and I have never been in a long last relationship with a girl and I'm worried it wont last. I'm ultimately scared of the risk because I know my boyfriend wants to be with me for the rest of his life and I don't want to throw that away just to try things out but i don't want us to split up when we have kids and I am 40 and deciding to come out.
To top things off its Christmas and I am going away for a fortnight to see my family and i dont know that i could go out and not be tempted to get with a girl.
Please someone help my head is spinning with this, I know i am gutless i don't want to hurt him because he is like my best friend not my boyfriend.
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