But just to iterate, I'm not in love with him anymore. I'm in a stable, long-term relationship with someone else and am happy. To be honest, my 'love' for him was as much as any teenager could understand 'love' to be at 16. I know I now care about my boyfriend more than I've ever cared for him.
But is it normal to still have reoccuring dreams of past crushes/relationships etc? It's starting to really irritate me. I wake up to feeling of nostalgia, loss and actually missing him every few weeks, sometimes more often, and the dreams linger!!
The stupid thing is we were never even together, it had always been unrequited and I think that's partly why I'm having these stupid dreams. He was the first and only boy I've ever developed deep feelings for prior to my current relationship and I was utterly besotted with him for far too many years. In terms of intensity, passion and frankly, obsession, I've never felt that way even about my boyfriend now, and doubt I ever will again about anyone else. Since these dreams started popping up, I've started feeling regret and longing when I see pictures of him... almost like I've gone back in time!!
I know I don't love him anymore, and maybe it is quite normal to dream of exes etc and feel that pang of longing. But can someone just reassure me because this is driving me insane! I don't know why I'm dreaming of him so often now, years after I've gotten over him or even talked to him!!
P.S. Please keep anon, as I believe both he and my boyfriend knows my username. And let's face it, this is pretty pathetic...
Have you got yours?