Anon please as I have friends on here.
I've had a load of problems in the past but I've worked through them and I'm starting to think that the coping mechanisms I used to get over my old problems have given me a whole set of new ones.
I get anxious about pretty much everything. I obsess about the future and panic if I think for too long about things I'm not sure of. I'm so terrified of being alone that I anthropomorphise everything around me, be it stuffed animals or furniture or whatever. When I realise I'm actually alone I panic. I don't even need to be talking to people I just need people to be there. I've had to start little rituals to actually get me to sleep without worrying for hours, and when I do almost manage to sleep I sense insects in my room when there aren't any and imagine shadows moving where there aren't any. When I manage to get to sleep in the end I dream about being attacked.
I'm so unsure and scared of my future that I frequently think there's no point in having one. Sometimes I'm so sure that nothing could ever work for me and that I'm going to fail uni and none of my friends really like me at all and my boyfriend is only with me until he finds something better...the list goes on.
Naturally I can't tell any of the people close to me what I'm feeling. Every time I try I bottle it. I don't want them to worry.
I don't know why I'm writing this really. Does anybody else feel like this? Is it normal?
Think there's something wrong with me Watch
- Thread Starter
- 19-12-2010 19:13
- 19-12-2010 19:15
Inb4 "See a doctor/counsellor".
Which is exactly what you should do.
- 19-12-2010 19:18
You're insecure about the fact that you're insecure about the fact that you're insecure. That's a lot of insecurity.