It's not like i can't get sex, i've been through a rough patch but tbh, i got really turned on by the thought of paying a girl for sex and it's something i've always wanted to do (we all have our dirty little secrets). So after a lot of trying to decide with myself, i just gave in to what i wanted.
I'll spare the details, but she was god damn hot, and i loved the sex (i can't comment on whether she did, nor will i ever find out). Yes, the whole thing was barbaric and i know that a lot of girls say its wrong but tbh we talked about the moral issues and she was a clever girl, graduate from a good uni.
Problem is i want to see her again. I know its disgusting to make this more than a one off because she ****s a lot of men, the whole thing is wrong i know. But, we were texting each other and calling each other in private, she played me to cut a long story short. Nothing emotional, i'm not infatuated, but i said this would be a one off and it's coming to the point where i'm literally climbing the walls because i can't control my dick.
To be perfectly honest, i wouldn't be able to pull a girl with her looks purely on my own looks.