k so been home all day, alone not eaten.
whilst my family are all at a gathering enjoying themselves.
I didn't sleep well at all last night n been feeling rough all day, ( been sick etc )
Had an absolutely **** christmas eve, betrayed by one "friend" now complete strangers know about my health problems, one continues to blank me ever since I last met her can't even answer a reply or leave a message ( all I asked was if she had recieved her xmas card) then the guy I was kinda with had bad argument / ended everything.
Though managed to resolve problem with the latter ( I think)
Xmas morning managed to get worse, bad nausea dodgy tummy regardless was determined to get ready to go out for family dinner open presents been excited about a camera, want to start photography seriously.
Though my parents couldn't afford the camera I would have liked, I told them its fine AND DO NOT BUY ANY OTHER ALTERNATIVES, so they said they would put money towards the one I wanted, sO i said OKay fine. But ofc My dad totally ignored that n went ahead and bought a camera anwyay, 130 quid wasted on ****e.
The quality is absolutely ****, utterly useless for photography laggy shutter speed the actual picture quality is worse than my lg cookie phone camera...
What the **** do I say?
They're still out, they all went down to gt things ready and my dad came to collect me but I was sick ( he never believes im sick, until im literally in a hospital) this morning, he cursed me saying I had ruined everything blahblah insults and probably went back and told everyone I was too lazy to come.
6.15pm still not heard from them, I feel absolutely awful.
tl;dr
My christmas ruined, family hates me, n' a gift I can't even use or explain its fault without sounding like an ungrateful bitch.