I'm 22 male and I'm still a virgin. My social anxiety and paranoia has ruined my life, I can't step into a store or socialise with anybody because I know what they think of me. I never walk into stores alone because I know generally people (particularly women) will think "Oh, look at him, he's ugly, fat and full of acne. He can't dress himself and he's obviously a virgin and a retard". I know women are that shallow to think like that, that's why I've never bothered interacting with women on a higher level because they having nothing worthy of saying, other than gossiping or belittling people. I know this is irrational thinking, but this is my trail of thought and I know I do need to be locked up in a mental hospital. This has nothing to do with family, it's more to do with people who have insulted and belittle me over time and I now have no confidence. I know I'm socially inept, emotionally and intellectually retarded and I most probably have some sort of autism. I feel utterly depressed and I want to die. Only suicide can really help me, but it's something I couldn't do because I'm such a p*ussy. I constantly need reassurance over the way I look, it makes me feel like a narcissist. I have even lost confidence in my own judgement and a lack of confidence in my future. I really hate myself, can someone hire a hitman to kill me, I'll give you the money. Women in general despise me and I don't even know why.
I'm thinking about killing myself. Watch
- Thread Starter
- 27-12-2010 19:25
- Reporter Team
- 27-12-2010 20:05
I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so desperate right now. I can understand how you must be feeling isolated right now and it sounds like you don't have anyone close to you you can turn to. Would you consider calling the Samaritans? Their details can be found here: http://www.samaritans.org/ If you don't feel able to speak to them on the phone, you can email them or text them and they will usually respond within a few hours.
I'm going to close this thread now, not because we don't care or we don't want to listen to you, but because we are not in the best position to help you and sometimes people post dangerous advice or make insensitive comments. To help you to feel supported and able to cope with the stress you're under, the Samaritans are great for that. Please give them a call. Alternatively, the Samaritans can call you with your permission if you feel unable to call them. If you would like me to ask them to call you, please PM me.