I think I may have atypical depression.
For the last 4 months (it's been getting significantly worse throughout that time) i've been oversleeping and over-eating very badly. I sleep between 9 and 12 hours a night, and nap throughout the day or whenever I can. I think it's a mixture of feeling tired and wanting to escape, thats what makes me wanna nap so much.
I've put on over a stone in the last 3 months due to my overreating- it's very unlike me to put on weight, i'm normally very stable and never change! I've even been doing a lot more excercise due to my job, so if anything my weight should have gone down but in all honesty i can't stop stuffing my face.
Like the symptoms of atypical depression I can feel joy and happiness, for example when i'm out spending time with a good friend or something. But the second i'm on my own bam. I'm back to square one. The majority of the time i have a very very deep sinking feeling inside of me, like the type you feel when you hear bad news. I'm not sure if this is a symptom of depression though? I also don't feel excitement for anything anymore. Going out and socialising seems more of a chore than something to look forward too, even if it is a night that involves people I really like and get on with.
I can think of possible triggers for this supposed depression. For a while now (2+years) i've been treated very badly by a 'close friend'. Used very, very badly, and betrayed. Not to mention my self-esteem has been hit incredibly hard by some of the things that person has said to me and manipulated me with. I'm still trying to deal with it.. but it's not working, and it's on my mind 24/7. My whole friendship group has fallen apart due to this person so I often find myself alone in my house with nothing to do, and the thoughts of this person and my old friends take over.
I've recently come off roaccutane as well, so I feel maybe this could have triggered something? I'm not sure though ... as it's got much worse since i've come off roaccutane which seems a bit backwards to me.
Does this sound like depression (atypical or not) to anyone? And what on earth do I do about it? I feel like a GP may not take me seriously and i'd feel very embarrassed and silly explaining what i've just written on that post. I wouldn't even know where to begin. Someone help me? :/
Potential depression? Desperately seeking guidance. Watch
- 29-12-2010 23:48
- 29-12-2010 23:50
Thought I should also add that I have NO thoughts of suicide or self-harm which makes me think I don't have depression per se?
(Original post by Anonymous)
- 29-12-2010 23:59
The majority of the time i have a very very deep sinking feeling inside of me, like the type you feel when you hear bad news. I'm not sure if this is a symptom of depression though?
(Original post by Anonymous)
- 30-12-2010 00:07
I think I have depression, and the feeling I get is lwhat I can only describe as bad adrenaline/a heavy weight at the bottom of my stomach. And it makes me feel tired, and like I can not smile. Similiar or?? I have been wondering the exact same thing! x
(Original post by Anonymous)
- 30-12-2010 00:30
Yeah I know exactly what you mean! It's that horrible, horrible feeling you get when you find out something bad, or sometimes I think it comes with realisation/coming to terms with things. It definitely makes me feel like I can't smile. I have to say though I feel it more in my chest than in my stomach.
My other symptoms are:
- Tiredness and insomnia
- Lack of motivation
- Really sensitive and prone to crying
The main thing is this bad feeling in my stomach!
The reason I developed what I think is depression is a culmination of **** things happened at once -
-best friend being suicidal due to another friend being a complete ***** and turning everyone (apart from me) away from her.
-then college turned into a living hell.
- then didn't get into uni despite top grades
- then best friend and other close friend went to uni.
I still see her often and go up and visit etc, but still feel like I am missing out in special memories. xx
- 30-12-2010 00:58
Do you think it may be a phase OP? How old are you?
I used to consider myself depressed, but figured I'm really not.
- 30-12-2010 18:36
I need help trying to figure this out to...
I haven't felt happy in over 2 years, the only time i show a bit of joy is when im out with my friends because at least then i forget everything for a bit , but as soon im alone i cant stop thinking about how sh** i feel and just cry. i want to spend all my time with them because thats the only time i feel happy but i know they haver there own lives which sometimes i get jelous about.
I have a contant feeling that no one cares what i say so i just dont say anything and a feeling that people just use me when they need someone.
I put on a smile for people so they dont ask whatts wrong with me cause i just feel whats the point they dont care so i keep it all to myslelf which is the worst feeling ever! i feel so lonely because i have told no one , i no it would be a big shock to even my best friends becase im always the smiley person who is always there , but really i hate my life!
i cant switch my mind off and always feel anxious or guilty about things that i havent even done. My confidence and self asteeem is at 0 and even sometimes envy my freinds because they are all pretty and i feel im not. i hate being on my own but at the same time i hate being with people sometimes.
last i always have these thoughts of who would care if i was dead and how people would react to it .
I need help with what this feeling is because i cant keep it up much longer???
- 31-12-2010 13:03
yes, definitely sounds like depression. go and see your gp &/or buy a book about depression.