This is more of a rant than anything else, although any advice is always welcome.
I'm at a top Uni reading History. I'm regarded as being academic and my results are all very lovely and impressive.
However, something is missing. A lot of my peers have a burgeoning sense of ambition which I just dont have right now. With my profile, I could pretty much go for anything within reason, but it's the choice that scares me.
As I approach the end of my degree I have become quite disenchanted with academia, and want a career that involves helping people if possible (definitely not teaching though!). I came from a state school and at every stage of my academic progression I have felt pressured by teachers to strive and apply to top universities on the premise that such aims were objectively better. I'm not ungrateful, but feel a little as though because I'm bright teachers have taken advantage of this and pressurised me into going for things just so that the school/college looks good. Along the way I think I've forgotten what it is that I actually want out of life.
I wanted to join the RAF ever since I was a kid, but my eyesight would need correcting and the military still have strict rules prohibiting people with laser eye surgery from joining up. I'm at a bit of a loss really as to where to go once I graduate in May.
Has yours come through yet?