I really hate myself. I pretty much fail at everything I do. My life's actually quite good (not bragging). I come from a fairly well-off family, I've got friends etc. But I'm just rubbish at everything, even being a good person. I failed my A-levels, had to repeat them before I could get into University, and now I've failed to get a mandatory work placement, so have to redo another year again. I have friends, but I'm pretty much the clown of the group, but more laughing at me than with me. And I'm 21 and still a virgin, and never had a girlfriend, and the girl I love doesn't even speak to me anymore. I feel depressed, but don't think I have any right to be depressed as there are people who have it a lot worse in this world. But right now I just feel like the worlds biggest failure, and it seems there's nothing I can do about it. I've been applying to do other jobs, but still failed to get them. The fact that I'm from a fairly wealthy family just makes it feel even worse, cos I've had a headstart in life, and still managed to f**k everything up. I go to bed at night wishing I wouldn't wake up, cos I'm too much of a coward to actually kill myself. People say to compare your life to others and you'll that it's not that bad, but the fact that there is loads of problems in the world just makes me want to live in it even less as those people deserve a better life than me cos I'm a t**t. I've just lost all motivation. Last year I was still single, but I was on a good Uni course doing well and chasing after the girl I liked was the biggest motivation in my life, I did it all for her, when I was sad I just kept going cos of the thought I might be with her one day, now there's nothing.
The definition of clinical depression is essentially being depressed without reason. When you have Depression, it is possible to understand perfectly well how much better off you are than most other people in the world but still be depressed and experience problems such as a lack of motivation and thoughts about death.
You should try and get some counselling.
Also, get someone to look at your CV to see why you're not getting jobs. Depression is very common among people who are unemployed as humans inherently need to feel like they are accomplishing something. You don't have this in your life at the moment so it's understandable that you feel depressed.
That actually made me sad.
Look, you've hit a bad patch, everyone does. All you've got to do is concentrate on what you want from life and how the best way is to get there. It's easy to say "life is hard, and I'm failing because of XYZ". Why don't you say "I want this, and to get this I need to....".
Focusing on the bad things only makes you feel worse about the situation overall. You need to think, despite of all these bad things, I'm still going to succeed because this is something I want from life.
Overall, be optimistic, its just life - don't take it too seriously, you'll never get out alive.
I think you might want to consider speaking with a counsellor. Your university might have an advice/counselling centre, in which case they will be able to help. Otherwise have a chat to your GP, it's definitely worthwhile doing something about this.
You deserve help with this and it will be worth it.
Think of the people in Japan!
If something is bothering you no matter how big or small you need to fix it.
I would recommend seeing a doctor.