you need to decide what you want AS a person, only then can you fit your choice perfectly to suit your needs.
Its true that often our growth as an adolescent and a young adult is stunted by opting for the simplicity of doing what someone tells us to do and NOT what we really want to do once we've worked that out oever time what that is. Dont apply for a medical school without thinking through what you want to do when you get there.
If you do, you'll find that you didnt choose what you wanted becos you prioritised the views of someone who wasnt you..simply becos it was less effort that deciding for yourself. noone can tell you what you are, but you. find you.
take some time out to decide what you want instead of applying without thinking it through, then choose it and reject anything else. And finally in the future NEVER rush your decision making by replacing it with the views of others arbitrarily.
please dont be offended by the truth in this post, thats the worst thing anyone can do. rather, embrace it.