Situation with mentor has gone from bad to worse.
Yesterday- Me and DN decided to man up and tell her face to face whats happened, and why I don't want her as my mentor
Today- I came in placement after a sleepless night, in tears- as i'd been stressing about it. We decided not to do it, and leave it till after placement
BUT this now leaves me with a predicament- do I still have her as my mentor? I really, really, really don't want too- she makes me feel awkward, she belittles me, treats me and the patients like crap and just ruins my day. I've been very good this week in getting loads of visits with other members of staff (they all know whats going on) and they've been supportive, making excuses for me (like anna wants to see a tv referral today, or i have a b12 injection to do and anna wants to do it) etc etc. However friday I have nothing..
I just don't know what to do. I'm thinking- man up, say something with the DN and get it sorted. If its awkward- its only for a week.
I'm going to be writing an incident form on tuesday with my main mentor. I also chatted about this to other members of staff (other than management) and made me feel better- they all said they'd had problems with her in the past, eg one colleague had her as her preceptor and she was awful. One other nurse said she was shocked she was even allowed to have students and wouldn't let her student go out with my mentor as she's that bad. SO I feel better in that I used to think it was just ME being silly and sensitive- but no.
Just UGH
Its ruined my placement