Keep anon please
I'm a 19 year old guy and gay (which I hate in itself) I've never had a relationship, and I've never even kissed anyone.
Lately, I've found myself yearning for a boyfriend, the problem is that I am really ugly (features that can't be amended without surgery, which I am saving up for) and I don't go out. I've only ever been to one party and that was a 16th. It's also unlikely that anyone would love me in return, so what can I do? I'm also not out.
I don't even want sex, just someone to kiss and cuddle on a cold, lonely night; to talk to and 'support'. I usually hate all this lovey-dovey stuff, but lately I've found myself yearning for it.
What can I do?
What should I do?