Anon because of peers who may judge me for a speculative/existentialist/crazy/waffling post.
I feel extremely restricted as a university student. I have often thought that this is simply because I think too much (and this is probably the only reason) but hear me out.
As a university student (and at a fairly average university and living at home*) I often feel as though the only extra curricular options available to me are either getting wasted, joining one of the appallingly low number of societies or making a society which nobody will be interested in.
As it seems to be with a lot of people, the things that make me happy are things that I get when I work hard; getting great grades as a result of hard work, buying a house as a result of hard work, etc.
However, the problem is that in this current climate, I can't find a job and as a result the last summer I had was... well, boring. I can't go on holiday with friends (ex girlfriend part of a now divided social group, complicated) and my family doesn't have enough money to go on holiday together.
I suppose what I'm trying to ask is... what can I do? Currently my only aspirations are to work hard for my exams and achieve my targets. This will keep me happy for a long time. Once I'm done with my degree I can finally let loose, go get a job, work hard in the working world and do what I want. Right now I can't, since... well, all the money I have access to is either my parents or a loan.
Basically, if you're a student that's finding it tough to get a job, isn't the degree basically torture for 3 ****ing years?
*I'm living at home because my mother is unwell and my parents have been through a lot in their lives, and a) I feel bad leaving them and b) I was unfortunate in getting into the university through clearing, and as such was unsuccessful at a place in halls (this basically just cycled, and here I am at the end of my second year)
How are you feeling?